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christies heart
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since 1999-08-10
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NJ, USA

0 posted 2000-02-17 09:33 AM


I found a place deep within
where you cant laugh when I don't win,
a place where beauty lives and dies
despite my Mommy's lost goodbyes.

I've found a heart that once lost trust
when Daddy's methods seemed unjust.
I've found a me once swept to sea
when Mommy didn't care for me.

I've never known a quiet belief;
the window to my world's a thief.
My parents took my breath and soul
to justify pride for lives not whole.

And in the darkness after day
Mommy's footsteps went away.
While Daddy spoke a peaceful pledge,
a prelude to sanity's elusive edge.

First he's scream and then he'd smile,
then he'd play music for a while.
After ten drinks and twelve on the clock
he'd enter my room without a knock.

Now that he's ashes and I'm well of age
where did I store those years of rage?
I think I feel it once in a while
when I see my Mother's loving smile.

To both of you, Love Chrisite

© Copyright 2000 Christine R - All Rights Reserved
Danny Holloway
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since 2000-01-15
Posts 2034
Tulsa, OK
1 posted 2000-02-17 10:11 AM


Christie, you've written about such deep and personal feelings, and in a manner that shows your love and heartache.  
Keep that strength of spirit and continue your wonderful writing.
Danny

christies heart
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since 1999-08-10
Posts 189
NJ, USA
2 posted 2000-02-19 03:29 AM


Danny, thanks for replying to this poem. It means a lot that it is clear that my writing represents me comming to peace with my self and not comming totally undone!! (At least not today..ha)
tracie66
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since 2000-01-18
Posts 4713
Australia
3 posted 2000-02-19 11:14 PM


christie this left me feeling so sad for you, I understand now your comments posted in my poem A childhood memory....tracie
Janet Marie
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since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554

4 posted 2000-02-19 11:22 PM


this poem is nothing short of amazing...as is your strength and courage...find faith and healing in your poetry...you are very gifted...and no one can take that from you,
take care, janet marie

 Now for me some words come easy...
But I know that they don't mean that much
Compared with the things that are said when lovers touch.
You never knew what I loved in you--
I don't know what you loved in me...
Maybe the picture of somebody you were hoping I might be...
How long have I been sleeping-
How long have I been drifting alone through the night...
How long have I've dreaming I could make it right...
If I closed my eyes and tried with all my might
To be the one you need...
Jackson Browne



christies heart
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since 1999-08-10
Posts 189
NJ, USA
5 posted 2000-02-21 08:33 AM


Tracie..Thank you for the response. I am glad you understand my comments. Again, your poems (the two about childhood that I read)painted a great picture!

JM---your words mean a lot to me. I have come to the point now where I really have gained the stregth from adversity. And yes, the writing is somthing no one can take away



 Grant that I may not judge my niegbor until I have walked a mile in his moccasians

Native American prayer


Meadowmuse
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since 1999-12-27
Posts 3263

6 posted 2000-02-21 09:18 AM


Christie, this is such strong testimony to the healing process working within you, and to your sense of self for making it work. I have a very close understanding of the trial you've expressed with this poem, and would like to thank you for sharing this here. Your power, as a person, is likely found in many aspects of who you are, and is obviously residing with grace within your words. I love the way you've presented this poem, with honesty and self~awareness. I would like to post a poem called "Forever Out" as a repost from some time ago, and  would be honored if you would read it and consider it a sharing between the two of us. Please keep writing, Dear Christie, and continue your healing. (((you)))

Claire

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