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Is it just me who wonders about these little things
Like why you can be surrounded by loving friends
And still feel utterly alone and lonely
And why I wish to fly to the stars on wings of cloudy light
But never to be, for I am chained to the ground
Am I, I think, the only one who hears the echo
As my words drift back to me
Is it just me who can never truly feel the simpler things in life
Tuned to the youth of a teen
And yet wonder with a gallows humor
How many people fell for the smile there
And yet never touching my eyes
Star maiden, that's my name you see
But I'm losing that place in the sky
And the landing won't be soft
Is it just me who can't seem manage a single tear
When I hear the names spoken
Of my heart's family that is no longer here
And yet cry for the crushed lily
Thrown at my feet after performing
On stage where the light shines on me
And never reflects
What do I want, people always ask, seeing me wander
But when I finally think of an answer
They're gone and I'm alone inside again
The pain hurts so much
And words never express the emptiness
I know deep in my spirit and heart
For what's the worth of whispering something
That no one is around to hear?
What do I want?
Is it just me who feels this pain?
This fright at loneliness?
And this dread of losing companionship?
Why doesn't anyone ever listen?
To the things I don't say and always to the things I do?
For if you really would know
You'd remember that happy isn't there
A tear isn't enough
Neither is screaming at the top of my heart
An embrace would warm me for a time
But I'd be cold again soon after
What do I want, the question whisperes
Returning to me again
All I know is the pain and reply to myself helplessly:
"All I want is a friend."
The world's closing in
I'm fading away in a wash of people who don't seem to understand
How much it hurts when no one replies to my questions
And how much I want to cry
But all I wonder is if there's someone out there
Who would listen and tell me it all isn't true
For the dream is just beginning, isn't it?
Or is it just me?
"Sometimes stars can only be seen in darkness."
"Sorrow's crown of sorrow is remembering happier things."