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I yield to you
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I yield to you |
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amber Member
since 1999-06-15
Posts 240los banos, ca, 
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A pain that breathes uncontrollably, Lying defensless in your arms, You try to kiss away the pain, But nowhere am I safe from harm. Becuase it lives inside me, Much to my dismay, As I stare abroad into your eyes, From this bed where I lay. Tears are streaming down your face, Still consoling words you speak, "It's okay baby, I love you," As my mind becomes weak. Tubes run from my body, And tears from my eyes, I'm so affriad, Of where my future lyes. Somewhere without all of you, My family and my love, Traveling alone and cold, To the sullen clouds above? As I watch you cry I know, I could never make that trip alone, God has to keep me here with you, Just becuase I need him to. I wonder will it ever end, The pain that consumes me now, I close my eyes and hold your hand, Praying for a cure somehow. But the needle that awakes me, Brings me back to where I stand, The pain is gone, but confusion dwells, An IV running from my hand. What can I promise you, I cant even assure myself, That I can make this all okay, After everything I felt. Like my body died before me, And I watched from a distance, God please take away this pain, I yield to you, with no resistance. < !signature--> Only after trying so hard to let go, did i realize how much i wanted to hold you forever> Amber and Ellis forever and always [This message has been edited by amber (edited 02-01-2000).] |
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Severn Member Rara Avis
since 1999-07-17
Posts 7704 |
Amber - this is pretty heart wrenching, powerful stuff you have here. I wonder will it ever end, The pain that consumes me now, I close my eyes and hold your hand, Praying for a cure somehow. I can just feel that prayer - good writing.  'Writing sharpens life; life enriches writing' Sylvia Plath |
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Danny Holloway Member Elite
since 2000-01-15
Posts 2034Tulsa, OK |
Having worked in a hospital for many years, I have seen many people faced with similar circumstances. I feel you have written to essence of what these people felt as well. Good work! DH |
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Denise
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-08-22
Posts 22648 |
Sometimes even love can't take away the pain. Very wise words, Amber. Denise |
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devina Member Elite
since 1999-10-28
Posts 3539Cali |
Oh, baby sis, you have me crying again!!!!(my eyes are still swollen from yesterday!) I want you to know that you meant the world to me, and I'm sooo glad you made it through this yesterday....I don't think I'd be completely whole without you and your love sister dear!!! Just have faith and know that we'll find a way to make things better...and I'll be right there to watch you through it...I love you Ambs!!! Open arms can be the most fragile in the world... |
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Meadowmuse Member Elite
since 1999-12-27
Posts 3263 |
Amber, this poem came right into my heart as I read it. Very recently I held someone I love in my arms as we both struggled to hold on and let go at the same time. For us, during those last few moments of life, it was so much as you have written here, and with your poignant words I could just feel it all over again. My prayer is that you will share this trial that has befallen you with those you love and allow them to love you through it, and know that faith, so many times, is believing in that which we cannot see, but can feel, as strongly as the pulsing life between us. Love and shared peace, Claire |
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amber Member
since 1999-06-15
Posts 240los banos, ca, |
I wish that i could say something that could thank you all enough but i cant. I have never been so scared in all my life, never had to doubt that it would all be here for me to hold in the morning. And for the first time i had to wonder what if? what if i dont make it through, what if i cant tell him i love him in the morning, what if i can never agian spend an evening with my family. And that is where this poem came from, in a way that fear, that realization that in jsut an instant it could all be gone. Tanya i love you and when they tok my away i wondered when i would see you agian, and i felt so much guilt for all the problems we had been having. Claire you words were beautiful and thank you all so deeply. Never has there been a greater understanding than the one i have found here. Only after trying so hard to let go, did i realize how much i wanted to hold you forever> Amber and Ellis forever and always |
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jascanvey Member
since 1999-12-26
Posts 130England |
I seem to be spending more and more time at this site and yet it always reduces me to tears! This is such a moving poem and probably the scariest thoughts inside most of our heads and hearts. I'm glad you made it through to share your feelings with us and your family. My heart goes out to you. |
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Me2 Junior Member
since 2000-01-29
Posts 25Escondido, CA USA |
Amber ... we've never spoke before, but I have with your sister. I just wanted you to know that I can't make any promises or make the pain go away. I haven't prayed in a long time, but I'm here to tell you now, that I've never prayed harder and longer for anything more. I want so much for you to be and feel better. And I'm pleading with all my heart to Someone that can do something about it. The only thing I can tell you is that when my prayers are over, and I've wiped my eyes, I have a feeling of calm that is kind of like a sign that Someone is reassuring me that everything is going to be Ok. It's the same feeling every night, too. And I REALLY believe that. You should too! This world needs you. Desperately. Someday we'll meet!! I'm with you all the way... Paul |
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Alias Junior Member
since 2000-02-06
Posts 30 |
I'm so sorry something like this is happening to you... i really hope and pray that everything is ok.... I hope the pain that consumes you leaves. you have all my prayers, Alias |
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