Member Rara Avis
I read it, Love
Black on white
The ones you thought so impersonal
It wasn't the first time
I had read those words before
So I tried not to panic.
You thought you were free of me once before,
But I halted your efforts
With a final explanation
That I believed not the rumors,
And a number where you could reach me.
Yes, that stopped you in your tracks, Love.
Then one day through all the talking and trust
You said," I'm leaving her for good this time,
And only I had faith that you would.
Not that you did it for me.
I knew it was for yourself
And was the only one who could sense your determination
An e-mail of all things slaps me in my face.
"I'm going away"
That is how it began.
Well, you did
And still we speak on occasion
Each time I remember whispered nights
Forbidden for me then
Because after you left her
You were free from that guilt.
You apologized for heartache
I said you never caused me.
Its been a while now since I've called.
But unfailingly on cue to my distant voice
I'm cute in your eyes all over again
And you try to melt me
By calling me
You always did keep your promises.
Now I'm left with contemplation
Of our past.
Don't gain my affections and cover my eyes. In blindness I will only swing harder.