los banos, ca,
“Your memories that break my heart”
You keep them around, for memories you say,
As she smiles in my face,
So many tears she has caused to fall,
To ever deserve that place.
Everytime I see them,
I am taken back to when,
Everynight I spent with you brought guilt,
Every kiss a blinded sin.
When I was so in love with you,
And you kissed her tenderly,
Looking past her confused eyes,
To stare into the heart of me.
When I was your little secret,
That you claimed to love so dearly,
Then whisked away to say you love her,
Remember where that left me.
Alone in the dark,
With guilt in my soul,
A shameful glance,
Because you made me whole.
Nights on end waiting for you,
To take away this pain,
But everyday my hopes would fall,
Reminded you loved her again.
I still see that kiss in her eyes,
The look of triumph her face,
Even though she doesn’t stand before me,
She takes me back to that place.
To every tear that fell that day,
And continued throughout the night,
You want me to feel that all again?
Each and every night.
These memories you need,
Were the first to kill my soul?
Taunting me with your love,
I believed that I would never know.
But now it’s here before me,
And we have changed since now and then,
You say put the past behind us,
But you force me to relive it again and again.
I know that you don’t love her,
And never will again,
So why must you remind me?
That I let you hurt me so much then?
Do you want me to remember you?
As the person who broke my heart,
That loved me too much yet not enough,
To let me fall apart.
That came around just to make sure,
You would still have me to turn to,
To know now that I was so nieve,
An absent-minded fool.
Is that what you want my love,
Those memories to make you happy?
Because I try so hard to give you everything,
Love always and forever, your baby.
Only after trying so hard to let go, did i realize how much i wanted to hold you forever> Amber and Ellis forever and always
[This message has been edited by amber (edited 01-22-2000).]