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I Said I'd Never Go Back

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Lynn
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0 posted 12-29-1999 04:19 AM       View Profile for Lynn   Email Lynn   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to Submit your Poem to Passions  View IP for Lynn



I said I'd never go back
to doing what I once did.
But tonight, as I sat alone
in my room and cried,
the feelings started coming back.
I felt nausiated,
and soon had to rush
to the bathroom, where I vomited
for what seemed like hours.
The pain took over.
I couldn't handle it.
I reached for a razor
sitting by the bathroom sink.
Slowly, I moved it closer,
and closer to my arm.
All the while, I was thinking
of the way it used to turn out.
I saw the image of myself
sitting in the floor,
with blood stained clothes.
Screaming and cursing.
I soon put the razor down,
and started vomiting again.
Hopefully, things would be better
tomorrow.
© Copyright 1999 Jennifer Lynn Bonham - All Rights Reserved
Severn
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1 posted 12-29-1999 04:24 AM       View Profile for Severn   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Severn

This is a raw, honest piece - and brave writing.

If this is autobiographical then you know we are all here for you.

K
Astraea
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2 posted 12-29-1999 04:26 AM       View Profile for Astraea   Email Astraea   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Astraea

Very true...  But very nicely done.

~Astraea

 "Sometimes stars can only be seen in darkness."

"Sorrow's crown of sorrow is remembering happier things."

First__Knight
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3 posted 12-29-1999 04:26 AM       View Profile for First__Knight   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for First__Knight

Lynn,

This is a very real subject my prayer at this time is that it is fiction.  If you need to talk to someone please don't think twice....Email me we can talk. There are to many reasons why this needs to be fiction and not fact.  Help does exist

 I have learned that the pain of a lost love will fade, But the memory of having loved will last forever.

Lynn
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Jasper, Alabama U.S.A.


4 posted 12-29-1999 04:34 AM       View Profile for Lynn   Email Lynn   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Lynn


As much as I wish it was fiction, it's reality. December is just not my month of happiness. But tonight, as I sat in my bathroom floor, I did so much thinking. And as soon as I picked the razor up, I thought back to the times when what I wrote was an everyday occurence. The only difference, was tonight, I had the courage to put the razor down, and actually write, to try to get out my pain.
whiskey
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5 posted 12-29-1999 04:36 AM       View Profile for whiskey   Email whiskey   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit whiskey's Home Page   View IP for whiskey

Very sad poem , I hope you get what you need to get back on track , people are here to help anytime you need a friend there is one here for you
Echo Rhayne
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6 posted 12-29-1999 10:44 AM       View Profile for Echo Rhayne   Email Echo Rhayne   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Echo Rhayne

Lynn, I can relate wholeheartedly to you with this piece.  For I have done the very same, felt the very same, etc.  It's hard to put it down isn't it??  I am glad that you did though!  Email me if you would like to talk...maybe we can help each other out =o)
EchoRhayne@hotmail.com

 ~*~ Hell is not a place of fire and a devil with a tail and horns. But a place of torment because the light of God is gone. To escape this, accept the blood of Jesus Christ! ~*~

Lynn
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7 posted 12-29-1999 03:31 PM       View Profile for Lynn   Email Lynn   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Lynn


Echo...all I can say is thank you.
And thank you too whiskey.
Meadowmuse
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8 posted 12-29-1999 05:07 PM       View Profile for Meadowmuse   Email Meadowmuse   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Meadowmuse's Home Page   View IP for Meadowmuse

Writing, for those who write, can help us heal our injured souls. Keep writing and reaching out.
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