Member Rara Avis
By the Seaside
Dixie~~ I am so sad for you. I know you've been fighting a hard battle, and I am so sorry it's come to this. If and when you feel the good Lord tugging on your sleeve, would you perhaps think about reading a book by Anne Lamott, called "Traveling Mercies". She has a wonderful grasp on her faith and doesn't take herself or her spirituality too seriously. She has overcome some life threatening/altering addictions and has made a success of herself. She will make you laugh and cry in the same breath. For example, at one point she needs to get out of a situation and so she goes to the ladies room to pray, then writes a chapter about God being in the bathroom. She is probably the best author I have ever read. One reason being that I have longed for a relationship with God for some time, and yet I wasn't about to jump off the deep end for fear of failing. I'm embarrassed to admit I didn't even know how to pray for goodness sakes. But like she says, you can pray anywhere, any time, any way you like. She writes about a good friend who is very religious and goes on to mention that she calls God "Howard" as in howard be thy name. She had me in stitches I tell you. Oh Dixie, I wish I had the words to console you. You will be dearly missed and I will think of you often, and yes I'm going to pray for you too.
Be well and please take good care.
Many hugs to you, Dixie~