At the Crossroads of Infinity
Ron, Apologies if this is posted in the wrong forum, if so please feel free to move it to the relevant one....John
I apologise for the delay in posting this as I have only just had chance to check in. Rhiannon & I have been making the most of this weekend by packing as much into it as we could.
This has to be one of the hardest things I have had to compose. It is made even more difficult because I am so choked with emotion at the messages of support & love that I have just read on Dixies post and also the emails you have sent to me.
Having only been haunting these pages for a short time, the friendships I have made with you guys is more special to me than you can ever know. I am so lucky to have stumbled across this place & met such wonderful people.
Please know that both collectively & individually; you have all become such an important part of my journey. My bag is packed with all the must haves for my stay in hospital but the most important thing I am taking are the occupants of my heart and you folks are forever contained within, indeed, you are up on the top shelf taking pride of place next to my girls. For the strength & comfort this gives me at this time, I am truly grateful.
I am aware of the risks and am prepared, focused & ready. Am I scared? Abso-bloody-lutely ! My Gran had a saying that if you were going to get killed by a bus you would run like hell to meet it. This is how I have always approached life & my own belief is that when your time is up itís up. Nothing we can do will prolong our stay, sure we can abstain from whatever and improve the quality of our time but not the quantity.... That being said, I am not yet ready to go and will be putting up one hell of a fight. I shall go down the corridor humming that old Elvis song, ( No Tomtoo, not Return to Sender....Gotta Lotta Liviní to do !)
As I said in my critique comments box, I write because I have to, actually, the truth is I write because it is how I deal with lifes issues. I am believe it or not, quite a shy, private person out side of cyberspace and when I write I lay my heart down for all to judge, comment or remark as they see fit. I do not take exception to anything one might say in response to my posts & without wanting to offend the reader / replier, it matters not what you say in so much as it will not change what I write, say or feel. Itís just me, my take on things and for that reason, I make no apologies. Except for one..
Which brings me to the title of this post;
Apologies? For this lengthy diatribe.
Thanks ? For reading this far, putting up with me and your valued friendship & kind words ...
I canít wait to come back, see you all soon