Ft Hood, TX
First of all I'd like to say thanks to all the people who used the scroll back in 96-98. You guys really helped me through a lot of tough times and gave me some wonderful memories that I will always cherish. Times have changed since then and so have I, but your friendship will never be forgotten. To all of those who made the first gettogether in DC, that happens to be one of my fondest memories. You all really made hell feel so damn good. I'm currently in Iraq for the second time and will be heading to alaska in the next year for three years in fairbanks. I've got a wonderful wife and three beautiful kids and for the first time since I enlisted, I'm actually writting again. This time though, I've found better things to write about than the demons I struggled with for so long. At one point I burned most of the poetry that I had written after a really bad relationship. But I know that there will always be a place somewhere for Doreen, Balladeer, MI, temptress and nan in my heart. I've lived through alot of pain and heartache, yet now that those pages are done I look forward to getting a collection together and actually getting something going. I'm starting simple of course. First I'm filling up this notebook that I have for my wife to read. She loves my writting almost as much as I love to write it. Believe it or not, it's actually a first. I of course had to change my name to post under. Desperado no longer would have any meaning to the name with out the pain. So now I am writting as the most important person I could ever be, myself. And I owe it all to my wife, whom I know is the one for me. In the next few years I'm going to sit down and write the story I told doreen about so long ago. Ten Dreams will be amazing. I can feel it. I've got so much to write about that would go into it. I'm really excited. But first, since I'm so out of practice, I need to write my notebooks and get my rhythm once again. But I just wanted to say thanks and let you know that I'm doing better than I even thought possible. I'm truely living a dream.