I say goodbye to 2005.
I do so in apprehension. In fear, and in weakness.
This goodbye, is not bitter nor salty. Just an end to one year that provided my life with a lot to grow upon. Kinda like mold.
The trials I went through this past year have made me weak, but I now stand stronger than before. I no longer fear the unknown. I can stand on my own two feet without drowning in the quicksands of my weaknesses, or my fears. I can take my strengths and mold them into much greater things than I could ever have imagined before.
2005 was a year of growing up. Maturing, finding myself and my place in this world. It was a time for me to see the lows and highs of this thing that we call life day in and day out. It showed me that in order to be truly happy you have to have character. Strong Character, that of which you continually build upon. Willfully, and willingly put yourself on the edge, for yourself and those around you.
There are so many people in this world, and you are not always on center stage. Stepping back and viewing the world from many perspectives. In a boat, in a plane. Underwater, hanging upside down in a tree. Through the eyes of a child. Through the eyes of someone elderly. To be wise, you have to look at things from all different angles, and think out of the box, in the box and around the box. There is never one way to do anything, and you have to find your own way to do so.
This year was about baby steps for me. Each time I lifted my foot and took another step, the path in front of me got less blurry, and when the path game to a dead end, I had to chop through the savage brush beyond and clear my own path, to find myself to find my purpose, my calling and my way.
I don't regret this past year, or anything that I have done or have had done unto me. I take responsibility for all my actions, and I move forward. I don't look back because whats done is done, and you cannot change the past. But you can change the future. I can use the knowlegde I have now, and I can work out solutions for better outcomes, happier tomorrows.
I'm going to make mistakes. Everyone does, and I always will. Mistakes are a way of learning, and growing. Without them it would be a perfect world, a world full of problems and terror and irresponsibility.
I say goodbye to 2005 with my head held high. A smile upon my face and shoulders back. I sigh a great sigh of relief and prepare for the tomorrows. A new year... is on the verge. New opportunities, new challenges, new strengths, new weaknesses, new character, and a dash of happiness.
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