I guess I have had a lot to learn. I've learned recently that everything isn't about me. I am such a spoiled person that I have taken for granted that my friends, family, co-workers, and aquaintances are just people too, with equal feelings and whatnot.
I guess I assumed that everyone always needed to be in the know of every detail and spec of drama in my life, but thats not the case. I was blatantly told recently that I never listen, all I do is talk... so for awhile I think I might listened to what others have to say and feel. Without neglecting my own thoughts and feelings at the same time. Keeping everyone, well happy.
My plans haven't gone exactly as I have planned them. I didn't expeect to get sick, so I had to quit my job. I was recently in the hospital because my immune system crashed. I was told I could no longer work in child care.... this could change in the future but for now, it is not an option. So I am back to the drawing board.
Moving to California has been an awesome move for my life, its happier and I feel better.
Oh, and as for publishing in 90 days.. I think I have too much on my plate right now. I'll hold off on that for awhile... Maybe next year.
I'm in the process of planning my wedding.... they don't teach you this in high school... its very difficult. Especially when you are wishy washy like me... I like things to be perfect. Although I am not so why?
The date has now been set, to October 1st, 2005
On top of all this, I am going to be looking for a new job, and going to school... and now I have to rethink what I want to go to college for.
Graduation : January 29th 2004