By the sea
First, please let me thank each of you in the most sincere I know how for your prayers, love and caring.
Yes, as for now, Chemo and Radiation have been put on the back burner until they get more test results in. That will likely happen on Friday and Monday. Cancer in my throat right now appears to be the most life threatening, however, I didn't know that until yesterday after speaking with the doctors. For now, they're less concerned about cancer in my lungs, Adreanal Gland and stomach, liver, or wherever it may have spread, though they're very concerned about my brain.
I would like to be able to laugh again, my normal laugh, so that you could all recognize it, but a tumor is resting on the nerve in my right lung which may take my voice away forever when it's finally removed.
I'm still trying to be brave, but fear is seeping in wherever it can find a foothold to survive. When I find it there, I tell it to kiss my expletive, because I need to be strong now for my son and for each of you. That strength, I feel, will help me survive this, though I'm not certain how much of my health will be left when this battle is won, if it can be won. Still, I'm fighting back, know that.
I can't always promise you that I will have courage, as I'm sure you already know, but I will promise you that what courage I have and can tap into, I'll tap into as often as I am able to do so. You've always been so good to me. I want to be good for you as well.
God bless you all,
The stars will shine when I am gone,
the earth will turn on as before,
the gulls, still race along the shore,
the morning star, still kiss the dawn