I am sort of new here, but had the opportunity to see two of your posts amongst so many other members' posts.
And yours is one of the most sincere, and loving ones. There are many wonderful ones here ...and yours is one of those, which stand out.
Love and warmth dance throughout your posts, even though you feel cold right now at home, please know that you make others feel so warm and delighted with your words.
To be scared is natural for people when they are ill. But God is there, to hold your hand and make you feel safe. God's love, warmth and forgiveness are greater than any human being can imagine or understand. And He is always there, with his arms open, for all of His children, to hug and comfort.
I am a 'hand holder' - used to volunteer more in the past, but still do this as time permits - and I have been/am at the bedside of so many people who were/are ill. A lot of them went/go home after a while, and got better.
But they had all two things in common: they were scared and they had thirst for warmth, which they could not figure out what it was. This warmth was the feeling of God's love.
One lady, whom I sat beside at her hospital bed, was crying. She was scared, but had no family or friends there...just me.
She saw a cross I was wearing (crucifix) and grabbed it. She looked me in the eyes and said that it's been years since she last prayed. I held her hands - both of them - and put them together and told her that we would pray together. We prayed and prayed and prayed. As tears rolled down her eyes, she also had a smile on her face of happiness.
Every time I saw her after that day, she was always smiling and was not scared anymore.
Of course, that did not happen with all of those patients, but it did happen to some other too...the same way - we prayed together.
I am sure you already do pray and I am sure you already have lots of Faith. But please know that with your post, many, many people must be praying also with you...not physically, but you are in their prayers. You are in my prayers too.
By what I read in the posts here in this thread by other members to you, you have a wonderful talent - your writing.
So please do put on paper, your feelings, your reflections, your thoughts. And share these with us, so that we can be part of them as well.
I also like your name very much. It's the name of an important arch-angel - St Michael Arch-angel who fought/fights evil.
God bless you my friend, and I pray that you will feel warmth and comfort each second more and more.
[This message has been edited by Tais (02-24-2004 07:14 AM).]