I've gotten back my test results and the good news is that I don't have cancer. The rest of the news is that....it's not cancer yet. The result is that I will have to have a hysterectomy, but it is still uncertain as to how much will have to be removed. The risk is minimal but to not have it could have severe results. I'm not sure if I am taking this well or if I am still stunned. I expected the results and prepared myself for the possiblities, but it still stings.
I have told my children and asked them not to worry, but I worry. I have two teenagers at home and one of them has a 3 month old baby of her own. Realistically I will need to have the surgery before school starts in August because of the 6 week recovery period, but I'm really not ready now. In addition to this particular problem, I also have to have a mass removed from my breast that is non-malignant (Thank God) which would mean more sugery at another time. I'm not sure if they will perform both of them at the same time, but then again I'm not sure that I would want them to because recovery would probably be harder.
Anyway, my absence from PIP has not been intentional. It's just that I've had a lot of things on my mind. I look forward to when I can put all of this behind me and no longer have to worry about my health and well being. No, fear has no place here and I'm trying hard to stay strong for both myself and my kids.
Thank you for allowing me to share with you my pains and worries.