I'm so sorry that traditional medicine has little next to nothing to offer you right now. But there is much out there that has been overshadowed by TM and is often overlooked. The power of the mind is enormous. Tap into it and keep looking for other resources.
I just tried to find, in my skimpy library, a book that I have liked very much. The author I believe is Andrew Wilde? For the first time I suddenly realized what a mistake it is to give away books. I have always been one to pass on good books and now I have nothing to reference for you! Anyway, he is an MD but, focused as an osteopath. He is wonderful and he does speak to illness such as the one you are at war with. I highly recommend that you check him out.