Member Rara Avis
After waiting nervously by the phone for 3 days to find out my results... I finally called the radiologists' reading room for the bone scans and the radiologist I spoke to said that they normall don't give them out to patients... But I had spoken to her right after my scan and she recognized my voice and was shocked that I hadn't gotten my results yet and so she told me that there was a small metasteses right across the top of my left femur (thigh bone) and there were 3 questionable ones on my ribs... 2 of them were perfectly symmetrical which usually means that they are stress fractures... probably from when I had pneumonia and coughed really hard...and the other one I am pretty sure happened from an accident on my treadmill...
So the only concern was the one on my femur. Then my doctor found out that I had gotten the results and she called me very apologetically and told me that there were disagreements as to whether my leg was also broken.
She told me to go to the emergency room to get an ex-ray right away.
6 hours later, at the emergency room... we finally got the ex-ray... after manipulating my leg and making it really sore...and having to do it over again because the first series didn't come out... the technician told me that there was no tumor...it was just a clean break.
Then the physician's Assistant with whom I was working, came over and said that they had gotten a good picture of it and that it was a lytic lesion.
So, I have 2 opinions again... but I am sure that it is a lesion. This is terrible news. Lytic lesions are the ones in which the bone is eaten away by the cancer. They don't think that radiation will help it totally and I might have to have surgery to repair it. I don't think I will ever walk normally again and I am really upset because it now really looks like Florida is out for me... and I had been looking forward to that so very much...
Maybe some of you can come and visit me, here in Michigan.
I am also upset because of the speed at which that thing developed. 3 weeks ago, I was able to go up and down the stairs, now I can't do that at all.
I am really scared that it will keep spreading all over my body and that I will die soon.
I feel perfectly healthy now...except for my leg...
but that was hardly hurting at all a month ago.
So, I have to do everything I ever wanted to do in my life... really fast now...
If anyone who was going to the poet meet... especially those of you from overseas, can come to Michigan... it would make me feel much better. I know that once this is cleared up, there will probably be another one on it's heels but I might have some time in between to visit other friends who live in the U.S.A. But going out of the country would be too difficult right now.
~ loving hugs