Member Rara Avis
This week, I have a CT scan on Monday and then I get to discuss it with my oncologist on Wednesday and I am very frightened.
When I finished the radiation treatments on May 2, I felt tired but very upbeat. I was so sure that the tumor was totally gone.
My energy has now returned and I am still somewhat upbeat, but I am very scared to know if maybe even a tiny piece of it might still be there because it is a very aggressive cancer. Right now, I still think its all gone.....and don't even want to hear that it isn't. The scary thing is...that ever since I've had this horrible disease, I have never ever gotten one shred of good news, but I have kept fighting and intending to win.
I am really afraid of Wednesday, so I was wondering if any of you would be so kind as to please include me in your prayers. I will do my best to keep you informed on what is going on, but if its bad news, I may be so depressed that I might not be able to face it for a couple of days....but I really will try to sit down at this computer and let you all know something, or at least email one of you so you can spread the news.
Thanks for all of your love and prayers.
~ superloving hugs
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