Dear LynnFromCT, I am sorry to hear that. And since you are an adult now, just pay a little attention to the side effect of Ritalin.
Brain is a very mysterise organ and it does has strong power to adjust itself and constantly being developed by all new informations. So, try to read free verse 4 lines a time. You will get them, you will. Many poets here write beautiful free verses.
Forget how your school teacher labeled you. I have known several kids like this. You know, Children's brain are in developing stage. Some develop to certain stage early, some late. Have you read that many so called "ADD" are extremely smart and successful in later life? (you write beautiful poems, you know)
Shyness is one of human character. But go out to social will bring some fun in life. So Try to develop your self more. I am developing my poem writing in my brain.
And I don't like shopping too. When I was young, I often develop stomach pain when shopping. If you go out more, you will eventually get rid the fear. Try it!!
have a nice day!