Mmmm, I'm not known well by the majority of you. I was hesitant about posting a thought I had, but felt it was to important to not say. Hope it comes across as I thought it!
When I am down and depressed I have a routine of things I can do to try and take my mind off of things. I assume this means that alot of the depressed feelings is based on what my mind is thinking about. Yet, many of the items on my list are temporary distractions from what is usually a large problem. Eventually, for me I have to understand what is going on, try to fix it or accept that its something I can not change and find out how to live with it. Given that is the later, learn how to cope with it, the most redeeming thing I have ever felt is the love of friends and family.
Finally I get to my point. There is something to be said about the expression of love in time of need. To truly escape from the binds of depression you have to walk through it, but when I read the responses you got in this thread it was really an inspiration. It reminds me of;
One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there was one only.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from anguish,
sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints,
so I said to the Lord,
“You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there has only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?”
The Lord replied,
“The years when you have seen only one set of footprints,
my child, is when I carried you.”
by Mary Stevenson"
You can even take the references to the "Lord" and replace them with friends or family names and it rings so true.
I appreciate you posting this thread and I am glad I got the opporunity to read the hearts of so many that care for you. Maybe, it helps you to know that your outcry cured a small bit of depression I was going through myself today. Hope this comes across like I think I've said it.