Listening to every heart
An early note of Thanks….
A little over four months ago [yikes!] as stated above, my publishing company gave my baby [manuscript] to the editor[s] who would “have the proof back to [me] within three to four months”.
Suffice to say, it is rather apparent they do not work in legal or news publication worlds, where deadlines are deadlines. Except, perhaps, when they are up to the infernal “contract [cutoff date] time.”
I have learned a lot at this site. I thought I knew, and I thought I had, “patience” and knew “stuff”, as in “stuff happens” and “patience is bought here by the pound…” before I lucked upon Passions. I have learned so much more. And where to find more…
I know from previous experience through Passions that what we want isn’t always necessarily going to happen when we wish, especially when it comes to birthing a book. Oh, yes, there are exceptions, but those exceptions never really make the “rule”. Call those exceptions, “a moment” or even “fate”. Yep, that works.
Ron’s idea [with some pushing and shoving from friends] gave those of us who were here a few years back the courage, movement, impetus, moment…to say, “Yeah, I think I’m good enough to submit my poetry/prose” for an anthology. And then there were two. And then, three.
While Ron may need to be nudged, now and then, into realizing just how much good he has done over the last few years to poets and writers who dream of someday being an author…I doubt he really doesn’t think about what HE did…he’s more in tune, [I sense] of what he can do for others, how to make the site more computer/people friendly, how best to SERVE those who all have a common bond….
But he always takes things a few steps further. In those ways, he has widened not only his world, but all of ours.
By taking those initial few steps further [some three/four years ago], I found out that not only did I really want to write more, but that I had gained the courage/heart to receive more pink slips. You see, several DECADES ago I sent my work in to publications, and received the “thanks, but no thanks!” letters and sometimes, one, two, even three or more times was, then, enough. Let’s face it. I was skinny, had always been kidded about my low self-esteem, and figured that “those folk” probably knew what they were talking about.
Being the person I was then, versus the person I have evolved into [if Ali is reading, let’s talk about evolution of all natures… ] has changed, so other things must have changed, too.
But I think the guiding light was [again] Ron. When a few of our wonderful members saw my “prose/story” in Ron’s Prose Forum, they wrote, and I ad-lib, “take that “bleep” story OFF the internet so it isn’t stolen” and words to that effect.
God bless them!
Knowing that we have specific rules about making requests to remove our work, and given that most of those entries had dealt a great deal with responses, and such, when given the reason behind the request, Ron kindly “poofed” all of my 20 or so “chapters”.
Clicking in to the prose forum the following day/evening, I was…hollow. My work…was gone. LOL… But it was gone at my request. Still, this very hollow, aching feeling continued.
Sometimes, the receiving of praise is how we go on, how we subsist in the every day world. The words of praise, encouragement, excitement, belief, enjoyment, etc., all of that was gone.
I felt as if I had stripped others of something.
It later dawned on me that I had followed their request; that their belief in me was so great! that they, too, wanted to make sure that, regardless of copyrights on PiP, my work stayed with me, and that I carry it forward to its conclusion.
So, to those poets, readers, mentors, and friends, I say, thank you.
To Ron? An early Thanks….
I received word today that I may probably see my proof by the end of next week. [Don’t even ask about the timeline – I think I covered that above.] That my work is not “lost” among the masses of people who all wish a chance to succeed, or even just get published, is vindication enough that I’m supposed to be in this place, at this time.
I have been blessed with a great number of family, friends, poets, acquaintances, and co-workers who have asked about the book’s progress.
How could it be, any other way?
[This message has been edited by Sunshine (08-18-2005 10:42 AM).]