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675 posted 05-28-2004 01:57 PM       View Profile for Sunshine   Email Sunshine   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Sunshine's Home Page   View IP for Sunshine

LOL...a threatening promise...like a good, solid, thunderstorm in Kansas...I'll be watching...and waiting.

With hugs.
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676 posted 05-28-2004 09:02 PM       View Profile for serenity blaze   Email serenity blaze   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for serenity blaze

ah...home.

*raspberry*

It's a wreck too.

But I thought I'd take a minute to pop in.

I just told a friend of mine that my last entree was based on some soul-searching after I realized this past Wednesday that there were no drugs in my home.

For some reason that brought on a fit of laughter from me, too.

It's been over a decade that I could say that, (and yes, Ronnie Baby, smile, when I say no drugs, I mean not even a little pot.)

Wow.

I've been slaying dragons since I joined Pip, and you have all very gracefully applauded my acheivements and were patient, loving, and non-judgemental during my obvious "slips". And no, I'm not saying those "slips" are over either--I'm not sitting here in a halo--I've always found halo's rather binding.

But I know from experience that the real work starts when you feel the pain. So thanks for letting me just sort my innards out publicly.

And for the record, I don't recommend do-it-yourself detox to anyone. If any here read this and have problems similar to what I've described, please consult a professional.

Make that a team of professionals.

Chemical detox takes a toll on the body and it can, does and will make you very ill.

And I say a team, because you'll need some guidance to the inner work just for the "maintenance" of your own head.

and now, I'll answer a few questions I've been asked, so bear with me?

Many asked why I didn't go to that psychologist (the guy who is just a card in my wallet at the present time) and I wondered this too.

I just told my sister (twist) that I didn't call for an appointment because I thought the doc was doing me more good as a card in my wallet. As long as that remained an option, it was a spark of hope. But having had some unfortunate experiences with docs and medicines, I got a little leery. Had I gone to see this guy and he turned out to be less than I'd hoped for, then I would have had another disappointment to cope with at a time...well, let's just say, the card in the wallet gave me an edge.

Another thing I was concerned about was being medicated again--and I am at a point now where I understand there is no magick wand for this monkey.

If you present yourself to anyone with the idea of saying, "Here I am, I'm a mess--fix me" then it's not going to work.

It wouldn't for me, anyway.

The way I've dealt with this was strictly a personal preference and not the best way of handling it. So get help if you can.

I am simply so self-indulgent that I preferred to do the physical cleansing on the gentle cycle.

There were a lot of demons to slay and trust me, I know they are still camped on my front porch begging entry.

And then, there was one more question. Many of you know my children are members of this forum and have asked me how I feel about the possibility of them reading this.

Um...quite often they are reading over my shoulder.

We talk about everything, including this/these stories you have read here. They are very smart kids, and I refuse to insult their intelligence by pretending that the elephant in the living room doesn't exist.

So we talk about it alot, and yes, much of it is heartbreaking. But if it's possible to raise Republican Bohemians, I think that's what I've going on here with these kids.

An example of one of our conversations:

My son: Mom, was Daddy born dumb, or was it the drugs?

Me: I honestly don't know Son. I never knew your father when we weren't on drugs.

And then this, just happened just last week. My husband quit drinking and wonder of wonders, his brain IS waking up, and my son took note.

"He's NOT that dumb, mom!"

I nodded and told him that I'd noticed the difference in him too.

Then my son got thoughtful, and thought aloud:

"Man, does it do all of that?"

Then he paused and looked at me--

"Man, mom, if you could quit--can you imagine?"

(The boy thinks I'm a genius, I confess & blush.)

I told him I'd rather not imagine.

*  *  *

I'm tired of dreaming--I really wanna find out.

*  *  *

Now I thank you all again for tolerating my public wringing of hands.



There'll be more, prolly.

But I'll try to start sharing the joys as well as the sorrows, k?

Love to all.

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677 posted 05-28-2004 09:14 PM       View Profile for Janet Marie   Email Janet Marie   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Janet Marie

The boy thinks I'm a genius
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so he reads your poetry too?  

K?     ...........  
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678 posted 05-28-2004 09:21 PM       View Profile for serenity blaze   Email serenity blaze   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for serenity blaze

and hugs back to m'twin.

I'm laughing again, remembering a conversation about six months ago we had--

It was the first time I'd talk to you sober.

Thank you, Janet Marie, for being the best friend anyone could hope for.

And now, I really gotta go rattle dem pots and pans.

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679 posted 05-28-2004 10:51 PM       View Profile for Nightshade   Email Nightshade   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Nightshade's Home Page   View IP for Nightshade

Karen, I wish you lived closer so I could give you a big hug.
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680 posted 05-28-2004 11:16 PM       View Profile for brian sites   Email brian sites   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for brian sites

and you know why this last entry
makes me beam
like a kid with a TeenTitan marathon saturday

god I am so proud of you
in more ways than you know
and dont be worryin about that halo

remember
2 forward 1 back
not only gets the job done...
but is more natural
and feels like solid ground

love you lady
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681 posted 05-28-2004 11:30 PM       View Profile for serenity blaze   Email serenity blaze   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for serenity blaze

vilya....
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682 posted 05-29-2004 10:21 AM       View Profile for Sunshine   Email Sunshine   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Sunshine's Home Page   View IP for Sunshine

quote:
I'm tired of dreaming--I really wanna find out.


You will!  
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683 posted 05-29-2004 12:35 PM       View Profile for Duncan   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Duncan

"Wow" she says.....

and so the Understatement of the Year Award is given this day to our sweet Serenity.  

and yes...it comes with a tiara.  

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Smiling at you, Karen...

You look great in that tiara... grin

Love you...

"When the power of love overcomes the love
of power the world will know peace."
--Jimi Hendrix

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685 posted 05-29-2004 01:00 PM       View Profile for Enchantress   Email Enchantress   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Enchantress

Ohhh reminds me...

Karen, can you post a pic of your tiara?
The one you told me about?

Pleeeease?

Hugging you tight.
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686 posted 05-30-2004 01:54 AM       View Profile for serenity blaze   Email serenity blaze   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for serenity blaze

A picture of my tiara?

smile.

It's not a beauty queen type thing, tho, so I'd hate to disappoint.

It's a pewter rendering of leaves, with faux pearls and only a few sparklies. It's kind of, well, if not witchy then pixie.

But yes, if you can be patient, I'm supposed to be getting that digital cam next month, and as long as I don't have to be WEARING the tiara--I think I can arrange for a photo.

But now I'm tard. (That's tired for you northerners)

My Dad used to use an expression to describe exhaustion that would make me wince--maybe it's a Texas thang, but when he was really whupped he would say,

"I'm dead-dog tard."

shaking my head...

he had a million little sayings like that...

Dream sweet, good poets.

I love you all bunches.


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687 posted 05-30-2004 08:58 AM       View Profile for Enchantress   Email Enchantress   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Enchantress

Yes, that's the one...
you described it to me in an email once...quite awhile ago.

And no...you don't have to be wearing it.

Love ya sweet lady.

You're tard...go rest now.
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688 posted 05-30-2004 03:36 PM       View Profile for Mysteria   Email Mysteria   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Mysteria

I want you to know in my eyes you are "Queen" every day!  Your road has been a very long, dark, and sometimes extremely hard one, but each day you continue to take another step ahead to reach your goal.  By sharing the stories you help others to gain strength in their convictions, and hopefully learn from you to never give up for all dreams are possible if you only try.

So, to me lady you are definitely "THE Queen", and have every right to be a tard queen too, you work for your title!
    
You are a dang cutie patootie witchie queen too if I do say so.

p.s. I want a house-wide search for that sneaky little Jesus
~ bet he has his hidden somewhere    
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689 posted 05-30-2004 05:28 PM       View Profile for serenity blaze   Email serenity blaze   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for serenity blaze

oh my godess...

lmao

This is wonderful, Sharon...

I'll have to have these printed up and put up all over my new neighborhood to let those folks know just who the boss, is, huh?

gleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I needed the smile, my dear crazy canuck!

(and btw, I wore that green outfit you sent me Friday too--I didn't go out anywhere, but I felt like I had! And it looks lovely with my tiara too!)

thank you thank you thank you



I love you lady.
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690 posted 05-30-2004 06:01 PM       View Profile for Mysteria   Email Mysteria   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Mysteria

GAWD I love you to bits!

Okay ... this is a daily ritual I have had ever since my last divorce, (well shortly after to be more accurate.)  One day Prince was play on the radio (I am so jealous, Sea is in Vegas seeing him in person this weekend!), anyway, I started to dance to it all by myself, and I have never felt that freedom I felt just then before.  There I was prancing around, doing ma thang, and no one to judge or criticize me ever again.  I was liking it so much I even started to sing, (well, some would not call what I do singing but are you getting the idea?)  This became a daily habit and then one day after a shower I figured, okay, Oprah says you have to love yourself butt neked ~ Oh, blek!  

So...there I was still dripping wet, with the radio going full guns, and just a dancing my neked bootie off all through the house and loving every second of it.  I didn't think after that (according to Oprah that I loved myself anymore,) but I sure discovered that I can have a party all by myself and love that time so much.  Ask Nan sometime about me dancing in the rain in Cape Cod for the masses! LOL, I did "Singing In The Rain" for all those depressed people that seemed never to have enjoyed rain before, right on Main Street.  Then there was last year when I took the family to Disneyland and at the gates, I put on tap shoes (much to my family's surprise) and did the entire "I'm going to Disneyland" routine from the turnstyle right into the grounds, and got applause LOL  

I have this saying when people keep trying to "find me a man", no offence to the men, as trust me I have had lots,  but I don't think I need one for a ton of reasons anymore ~ Anyway ... I say,
"There is a huge difference between being lonely and alone."  
I absolutely love the difference, and am so comfortable in it.  Each day I celebrate it with my crazy dance and am so thankful I can still laugh, and love life the way I do.

And hey, I bet you looked as cute as a bug in a rug (whatever than means) in that outfit, and did you have an anklet on?  One day you and I are going to set that place on fire, with bells on our ankles, and a song in our heart.

LOL, you are SO special, and don't forget it - EVER!

I read this thread and wonder just how many queens there really are out there, that just have not yet put on their tiara?  I say, we start a "Tiara Club" and proudly display our womanhood by wearing them too, and you know I would!
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691 posted 05-30-2004 07:05 PM       View Profile for Nightshade   Email Nightshade   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Nightshade's Home Page   View IP for Nightshade

Oh, oh....oh...may I have a tiara too? Please, oh please?!!
When I was a little girl of oh I think 3 or 4, I used to get out of bed at night when my parents were entertaining friends, and take off all of my clothes, then enter the livingroom butt naked, singing... "let me go, let me go...let me go LOVER!!" I have no idea why I did this. Must have seemed a great idea at the time. I can't remember it, but probably Enchantress can. She probably had to come out of her bedroom and drag me out of the livingroom, back to my bed and discarded pajamas.
  I still have moments of sheer "glee" and crank up the music and boogie around while I dust the furniture. Not in the nude mind you, but lovin' my mid-age bod just the same. "Oooooh...shake your groove thang...shake your groove thang." Is a "groove thang" what I think it is?
  Anyway, yes, Sharon...a Tiara Club! Awesome. I would like to sign up please. If I don't deserve to wear jewels upon my noggin by now, well, just put me on an ice flow and let me sail away. Luv you guys!
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692 posted 05-30-2004 07:29 PM       View Profile for Sunshine   Email Sunshine   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Sunshine's Home Page   View IP for Sunshine

LOL...yes, Sharon, you WOULD start a tiara club, and all of the women here would be hard-put not to raise their hands and say, "Yes, please, may I join as well?" and they are all quite deserving, all in their unique, individually special ways.

But...I don't do hats [well, I try, but fail...] and I don't do tiaras.  Special reasons for that...

but I would never deny those who can, should, and will!

Hugs, y'all....it's been a terribly frustrating weekend...hopefully to be reconciled by tomorrow!

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693 posted 05-30-2004 11:15 PM       View Profile for Mysteria   Email Mysteria   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Mysteria

Incidentially I was talking to Karen earlier and she had mentioned that she had wanted to start a "Club" before ever reading my silly input, so maybe we can wait to join her club seeing we are sitting in her treehouse?

Nightshade you definitely don't have to be butt neked to join a tiara club but you should not be afraid to say, "Absolutely no way, nada, not doing it, going there, eating it, cleaning it, cooking it, or raising it" to any man when you want to, and be ready to put on that tiara and strut with some attitude when holding your ground.  I never could figure out how I could always seem to stand up to men over 6 feet tall, and still be afraid of a 3 inch mouse.     I think tiaras are about attitude.  Just like I love wearing a baseball hat when I get dressed up or sneakers with a ball gown, see?  It is not a women's lib thing, just a respect my opinion thing, and listen to me thing.  Tiaras make us kinda regal somehow don't you think?
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694 posted 05-30-2004 11:17 PM       View Profile for Enchantress   Email Enchantress   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Enchantress

Oh my gawd!!  Love your post Sharon...

Chris!!!!  I remember that so well...why did you do it?
Attention maybe?....but..how did you ever think to take your clothes off for the added pizazz?

This is a true story...Chris was about 5 or so..she would wait till our parents had a room full of people, usually people in the entertainment industry, who were laughing and partying, then she would remove all her clothing and come out butt naked and sing "Let Me Go Lover"!!  She would belt it out with so much expression it was priceless!  

Was it the applause..?
To this day I do not know why she did it.
Perhaps she missed her calling?  

She does a great rendition of "Let Me Entertain You" as well.

Yanno..I had a tiara once...when I was another magician's assitant. It was part of my costume...and have loved them ever since..

Gosh, I would love another...
Do you think I can belong to your tiara club?
Pleeeease?
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695 posted 05-31-2004 12:41 AM       View Profile for Mysteria   Email Mysteria   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Mysteria



I guess it's official then huh?  I think we can safely, for the sake of Passions, make this club an international one too.
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696 posted 05-31-2004 12:52 AM       View Profile for Martie   Email Martie   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems   Click to visit Martie's Home Page   View IP for Martie

uh hummm!!  I know I'm not a very active member...but, can I be???   Please!
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697 posted 05-31-2004 01:59 AM       View Profile for Mysteria   Email Mysteria   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Mysteria


And in by a tiara's sparkle is the latest May member, Martie

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YOU ladies really are somekind of wonderful!
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699 posted 05-31-2004 09:13 AM       View Profile for Enchantress   Email Enchantress   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Enchantress

May I borrow a favourite word here and just say....GLEEEEEEE!!!

What a royal feeling to awaken to this morn.
When I opened my eyes I knew somehow I had 'changed'..just felt different somehow.

Sharon you are priceless!!!

Lookie us!! Queen

But if this is the May Tiara Club...and tomorrow is June...what happens to us at midnight? Heh heh.

OHHH I love thisss!!!  Magic Wand
 
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