in the interzone now
I'm friends with three diagnosed bi-polars, and about five who show all the same signs but haven't gone to a doctor (and I myself am more dangerously moody than my diagnosed bipolar friends). I've done research on it, in both high school and (first year) university psychology, because it just captures my interest so much... I hate doctors with a passion, and am in essence trying to diagnose myself, I suppose.
Here's a fun fact: Most creative people we know of (in other words, the actors, authors, composers and comedians who are succesfull enough for you to know their name) have manic depression, chronic depression, mild to severe schizophrenia, or any number of personality disorders (the first three are chemical imbalances). There have been studies upon studies done to see whether or not creativity and insanity are linked, or if things like this are just odd coincidences. No one can seem to agree.
Makes you wonder if being insane makes you creative or being creative drives you insane... Hmm.
Anyway, backing up. Manic depression is a chemical imbalance. Period, exclamation mark. Dopamine and some other thing that I forget the name of (I know, I'm terrible) are supposed to be held at certain levels in your brain, but when they're released wrong, they mess you up somethin' fierce.
One of the most recent things I've heard about manic depressive statistics are that it's most likely to start showing after puberty (what with all the other chemical changes going off), but it's possible to be there at any age. (It's just harder to track chemical imbalances or mental instability of any sort in children, because kids are just plain weird.)
And have I ever used so many parantheses before in my life? I don't know.
Anyway, I'd just like to say that I think chemical imbalances and personality disorders and the like are a hell of a lot more common than the stats show... I mean, aside from the bipolars, I know three other people who have been diagnosed with mental problems. (Severe anxiety disorder, ADD, and something I forget the name of that is basically the obsessive need to defy authority; that one was put in the psych ward for a great deal of his childhood.)
So that's 6 people who have been officially diagnosed, which in itself makes you wonder about the stats claiming only a minority of the population has mental problems...
Maybe I just attract 'em. But I really doubt that. In my experience, it's normal for people to be abnormal, so maybe we'd better start switching around our definitions a bit...
Anyway. This is my late-night babble. Sure, it's first thing in the morning, but I pull graveyard shifts, and it's way past my bedtime.
impress me, or be discarded