British Columbia, Canada
As one of your Canadian neighbours I have to tell you I have been so upset since Tuesday, and living alone I am scared to death! I have not been able to sleep properly or eat. We too have been terribly wounded by the terrorists. Today, I woke up and it was foggy in Vancouver and I simply sat down and cried because I could not see the sky over downtown, and it has become important to me to watch the sky.
I have been busy trying to write (and not to well) to show support and cheer up my American friends, and offer some hope, give an aura of faith, and sisterhood while expressing my sincere sympathy to all victims, and loved ones. I wanted to show my respect for the volunteers, and the military, and hold hands with those whose hearts were aching. I wrote of brotherhood and forgiveness but today an incident has silenced me to write about this anymore, and I have to hold a silent vigil.
I started a candle vigil and support network for two neighbours whose son was missing (as a tourist) at the Trade Center, and offering some hope he would be found. He has not been, but still we keep the candle of hope burning. This candle also burns for a school friend that worked at the centre, and so far we have no word on her either.
When the planes landed in Vancouver unable to go to the United States, I took in two families from the U.S. and listened to their terror, and tried to comfort them as others here did with visitors they took in, and all the while I wanted to just be sick.
I have never been vindictive, but I want these terrorists put to justice for what they have done to us all, but I don't want it done with hatred. Today an incident took place that has changed me yet again! I can not hear or see anymore of the hatred associated with this act of violence that has been committed.
TODAY … I was cutting through my favorite playground, as the sound of children always makes my day, when I saw something so despicable I am embarrassed to tell this story. A small girl was on a swing, when two boys went up and pulled the scarf from her head, and called her a "murderer". These boys proceeded to push her off to the ground and kick her hard while she lay curled up in a ball. I went to stop it, and two women and a man came running up. The man said, "leave them alone, those people deserve it". Another man appeared, being the Father of the girl, and stopped it, but when he went to walk away, the other man attacked him and spewed venomous words about Muslims and how they were all going to be "toast"! The kids were yelling terrible things at that little girl as she walked away with her scarf in her hand, head bowed.
Finally this was stopped, and I simply sat there crying. What I heard from the mouths of babes can not be repeated on this site, and this they learned at home.
What is coming to this world when parents teach their children this kind of hate? Do they not realize that by doing this, they are forming character in their children like the very people we are now hunting down? This tore my heart out today to see that little girl so degraded and attacked.
I have a new granddaughter due to arrive in 5 weeks, and my biggest concern right now is that I hope I am here to see that event.
Yes September 11th has changed the world, and this is just a sample of how it has changed mine. We have a large Iranian and Muslim population in our area, now what? Is this to be a daily problem? Another thing for me to be scared about?
I pray for no hate and prejudice please - it is a cancer that spreads like wildfire from ignorance, and grows into evil, like we saw on September 11th, 2001.
I never thought I would say this ever but I want the terrorists, and the supporters that have done this to the world. I want justice for how I am feeling - which is absolutely NUMB. I can read and see no more.
Thanks for listening, and my prayers are with you all. I send my love and sincere sympathy to all loved ones waiting and of victims.
~* If you want a rainbow, sometimes you just have to put up with a little rain *~