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White Wolf
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0 posted 02-13-2000 06:56 AM       View Profile for White Wolf   Email White Wolf   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for White Wolf

Well here I am.  My question to all is: What is wrong with me?(I may aready know the answer).  It started way back in grade school but was different and I know everyone goes through this for a time.  I was completely oblivious to female affections until high school, except once in the thrid grade when a female taugh me what love was.  In high school I could see how some of the females "liked" me.  I would talk to them but it was always me who had to start any convesation.  They wouldn't even try to catch my eye.  Since high school it has always been that way, except afew times when I would use my charm to capture a female's heart.  I never like doing that but it seemed to be the only way I would ever get a girlfriend.  They would look but not talk to me.  Why?  I know I am not ugly.  But why?

One reason that was pointed out to me was the fact, that by Chinese astrology I am a Dragon of the element of fire.  I seem intimidating and unattainable.  Just one thing, this dragon is very emotional(yes, some men are that and I admit it).  Sometime I just feel that it isn't fair.  I want friends.  I may even want a relationship(no this isn't an invitation, ladies.  Just a fact) that doesn't begin by me charming them.  I don't like using it.  I can never be certain that they are with me for me or because my charm has caught them.  It seems that my only lasting friends are dragons.

Anyway this may be more of a feeling or a question or just me ranting.  I think I just need to get it out.  By the way nobody here at passions do I class in any of the above categories 'cept family and friends.  Thank you all for providing this warm place to come and vent.

SD


 If dying is the process of living life to its end.
Then what is living?

Alicat
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1 posted 02-13-2000 08:53 AM       View Profile for Alicat   Email Alicat   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Alicat

SD, I can understand your plight intimately.  In H.S., I was much the same, but completely ignored.  And it stayed this way until college.  It may be that those girls in question are below your maturity level, or...you could be below theirs.  A more likely reason is that they are after popularity, so shaped by today's mass media implication that only popular people can make it in this world.  I vehemently disagree.

I'm not a Dragon, just a lowly Dog, but I can understand your plight.  You might have to wait a few years, though.  In the meantime, why not take this aloneness as a lesson to be learned, for at some time or another, it will have to be.  There will be times when you have NOBODY but yourself, and you must be ready for that eventuality.  Learn the lessons that being alone can offer.  And being alone is not the same as loneliness.

Alicat
Marilyn
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2 posted 02-13-2000 01:53 PM       View Profile for Marilyn   Edit/Delete Message      Find Poems  View IP for Marilyn

ahhh this is the question I have asked myself many times. I too was not sought out in high school either. I have asked many male friends of mine why men look but not approach. It would be very nice to have a conversation instead of being leered at from a distance. Anyway....I have no answers to this question other then just continue to be yourself. When someone can value you because of that, only then came you find true happiness.

Ali is right. There is a difference between solitude and loniness (being alone and loniness) if you can find the peace in alone, then loniness doesn't hurt so much. (listen to me talk while I fight loniness constantly...lol)

Chin up and remember we are always around to help ease your loniness.

Your sister in words,

Marilyn
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