I haven't been around for a little while, not cause I don't want to be but because I seem to have lost my zest for life...I have no patience....I get entirely fed up with my pc asking me for confirmation when asking to print soemthing...of course i said 'print' cause I want it to print, I mean, do you pour soup in a saucepan, light the gas/electric and expect a message saying "do you really want to heat this soup????...of course you don't...I think pc's are starting to make us brainless individuals....just like I get fed up of AOL kicking me off cause they think I went to sleep...if I went to sleep and then got a huge bill I'd soon learn to turn the damn thing off but I get so annoyed when they kick me off with no warning and it takes me 10 minutes to set everything up again....
unmetered service in the UK is disgusting, they are unprepared for the toll on their bandwidth and can't cope so they bring in cut-off periods of an hour....just as I'm in to my discussion, wham!!! they cut me off and for this they charge me...
Adding to that I'm totally sick of trusting people only to be let down and bigtime, such that it really has affected me and I'm such a dancer, always kicking off my shoes and starting again but I'm tired, really tired of men, yep, that dreaded word...lol, saying " you can trust me"...ok, so I know there must be lots of women that men feel the same about, but I see good or try to see good in everyone and when I start isolating myself, I know I got hurt...so give me some good examples of when trust was good, when it was as it should be, whn you can rely on each other, when you know you are there, someone give me a reason to honour my faith...is this simply hurt talking?..no...it's years of battling against it and somehow I no longer have the sunshine to think or belive in it anymore, well I do, but I don't have the same strength to believe in what I once thought was the reason for relationships...I am FED UP of having my trust abused and still this little smile in my heart says..."one day sweetheart, you will have shoulders to rely on, words in which to believe in"
Sorry for the rant, but these past few weeks have taken their toll on me and I know it, to the point where I wonder why I bother to say anything or why anyone says anything to me, cause surely, that is what trust is all about?
Please, someone tell me my world will one day be right side up...that someday my trust will be equalled and honoured....that someday I won't stare in disbelief at words again...
[This message has been edited by RainbowGirl (edited 06-07-2000).]