Sharon: I would go anywhere and I mean that...I'd do anything and I mean that too, I just need to give my life some meaning, a goal to strive for, a reachable goal though, not some fantasy dream but one that is obtainable...only trouble is, money doesn't mean very much other than to pay bills so I want that hard to strive for feeling of having 'made a difference'
If you want what I would love, truly love to do...well, I'd love to teach children about computers, or maybe adults with learning difficulties or maybe show women going back to work that technology is not something to be afraid of anymore, I'd like to show all generations that taking a pc apart is much like cooking, simply following guidelines and using common sense, I'd like to laugh when doing so but answer questions seriously too, I'd like to make the most of me in some small way and feel like I had something to offer....maybe some charity work, build an environement or help to build one somewhere, build an orphanage (now that would be my love)...something, somewhere, be needed....not just work to pay bills, go to sleep and wake up to do the same....
I have a golden chance here to do something different, no ties, but I do have dreams and I do have needs but I have no goals as such...
For once, I have no one relying on me and that takes away a need, so I need to look and find a need that I want to fulfil and that need is to make a difference, to laugh, to share...simply that, I want to make a difference but I don't know how...my life has been about making people happy, but I don't have anyone to make happy, so where do I start?
I feel so goddamned useless!