Kamla - no need to apologize for sounding brusque or for anything you've said at all. We all have a right to feel hurt at times. Especially when we've laid our feelings on the line to someone who has been purely deceptive in their admonishment of feeling.
I suppose what bugs me is when you are told you have someone's love repeatedly, you make plans together with that person, and then poof.
I don't think I have to tell you I know how that feels. You probably can remember me making some pretty serious plans not so long ago, selling my house, etc. and having everything in my world turned upside down on a whim...
I'm not saying love doesn't hurt sometimes, all I was saying is love accepts. Love is not scornful in nature, even when lied to, misled, what have you. True love is given freely and expects nothing in return, therefore when something is given in return can appreciate it to a much fuller extent, (just my opinion based on my own personal dealings I am sure). If you ever loved someone who wasn't in love with you and never professed a love for you, you might better know where I am coming from. You could readily accept their position without the disdain or the anger that seems to stem from a rejection coming from someone who has professed their love for you, then for whatever reason changed their mind/heart, what have you.
Anyhow, I won't babble on as I am very tired already and probably not making any sense anyway. I will say that I am glad to hear that love is present in you life. For the first time in my life I am feeling like I really know what love is supposed to be like.
((HUGS)) to you, too.
[This message has been edited by Michael (edited 12-05-2000).]