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Ladycat 
since 1999-07-05
Posts 782At the edge and a doorway,TX 
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Alright... Now everyone that knows me knows that I have to hop on a podium for one minute just to rant and rave about something from time to time, but this time is serious to me... BREATHE.. Now I was at a New Years party with the people that I call my "family around here. The people that I have partied with for a long time. I split off from the rest of the group first, got married, moved away, had a child (beautiful son),and came back. Well, everything had changed like it was suppose to and I was pleased to see that everyone was going in the right direction. We are the power that keeps each other going. I was always there for them when they needed someone, but I never felt that I had anyone to turn to. This New Years was worse though. Everyone was partying and getting drunk and I just wasn't all for that. I didn't understand it. In the process of everything that was going on I felt like the outsider. There was noone there for me. No one to help me during the worse time of my life and noone to understand me as the year rolled around. Suddenly I realized that this was not the "family" that I was apart of anymore. This was a group of people that were all about themselves and I was about helping them. Where was I? Who was going to help me? I had never felt more alone in my whole life than tonight when I was with this group of people that didn't care or understand me anymore. For my New Years, I sat in a corner and cryed. Then I got up went to Denny's ate with these strangers and went home without them noticing till hours later. What is wrong with this picture? The more I think about it the more I want to cry. All I wanted to night was someone to hold me and tell me that this year was going to be different. What just happened? I think that I started off New Years the wrong way, but that is how I was feeling tonight. God Bless all of you who had a good New Year.. I Love You All The very heart-sick, lonely, and depressed, Ladycat Live in my world just once and you'll find yourself enraptured. |
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Poet deVine
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-05-26
Posts 22612Hurricane Alley |
Sweetie, YOU grew up..or at least grew more than they did in the past year. It happens. And it IS sad and depressing. Make a resolution to find a couple of new friends that are at the same stage in life that you are.... |
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Dopey Dope
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Member Patricius
since 2000-08-30
Posts 11132San Juan, Puerto Rico |
Well yea..PDV is right. I hope this year is a better one for you though!  I was born myself, raised myself, and will continue to be myself. The world will just have to adjust. I'm in love with my shadow I admire it daily |
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Ladycat
since 1999-07-05
Posts 782At the edge and a doorway,TX |
PDV and dopey, It is so heartbreaking to see them go. I don't know if I will ever see some of these people again. They have been alot of everything to me for the longest time. I know that the only way for me to find people in the same stage of life is to get out of this town that is worthless to me. It surely isn't the place that it used to be. I thought that I was going to be happy here for a good long time, but I guess that I was wrong. Same. I came all the way back down here just for this. Or maybe they have all grown up and I am the one that is left behind. Which ever way that it is, I know that things will never be the same and that is the most hurtful thing of all. Love, Lady Live in my world just once and you'll find yourself enraptured. |
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fractal007 Senior Member
since 2000-06-01
Posts 1958 |
Lady Cat: There is a poem by Mother Theresa that I find extremely inspiring, when I'm going through the kind of thing you're going through. I assume by the "God bless" at the end of your message, that you believe in God. So hopefully this will help you: Do it anyway People are often unreliable, illogical, and self-centered. Forgive them anyway! If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies. Succeed anyway! If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you. Be honest and frank anyway! What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight. Build anyway! If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous. Be happy anyway! The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow. Go good anyway! Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough. Give the world the best you've got anyway! You see, it is between you and God* it was never between you and them. Mother Theresa I hope this was helpful. I apologize to moderators if my posting someone else's poetry violated any board rules. *[There's supposed to be a semicolon here, but it messed things up] |
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