Wow, I feel for you. I was always the one getting hurt, or being played with (mind games), and then I finally said no more. When I wasn't looking for love, it found me, and I know this one is for sure. Funny how that happens, when you least expect it...
A line from one of my fav. poems--"plant your own garden and decorate your own soul, instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. You'll learn that you really are strong, you really do have worth..."
Happiness will find you when you least expect it.