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Critical Analysis #2

Selfish, Bitter, Twisted.

Hollow_Emptiness
Senior Member

since 2004-02-01

Posts 715
New Zealand

0 posted 2004-09-21 03:54 AM

Salty tears drone on and on like a preacher,
Don’t cry; don’t weep for my selfish actions,
They weren’t mistakes; I meant every bead of blood that soaked my skin,
My fingers racing across the keyboard because I let myself stop thinking and my body take over,
It isn’t the first time gravity has let me down,
It isn’t the first time my nails dig into my sweaty palms and ugly scowls grace my face,
In fact, it’s becoming repetitive.

You know the mirrors at the Easter show?
Where we used to laugh at the way our heads look exploded,
And the way our skin seemed stretched too tight,
That’s what I see when I look into your eyes,
A reflection of someone not worth it,
[edit by moderator],
That’s why,
And I wish I told you,
Even if you thought I was joking until you heard me scream.
I screamed with release,
Pain was worse emotionally.

I have never experienced the touch of your hand,
The groove of your lips,
But I felt your mind,
And I knew there was nothing left for me to see,
So now you blame yourself,
Which I can’t deny…
I was hoping for all along,
I wanted to see tears shed for me,
For me.
The sobbing was all for ME.

If I didn’t stop myself,
If I didn’t take control,
I’d be bitter, and I would be selfish,
And you would have to see that,
It still happened,
And I’m still enjoying your grief,
The attention,
But you don’t have to see that.

And I am portrayed in your eyes as misunderstood and depressed.

But I am ecstatic.

I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad. The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I've ever had. - Gary Jules, Mad World.

[This message has been edited by Not A Poet (09-23-2004 09:50 AM).]

Not A Poet
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since 1999-11-03

Posts 3885
Oklahoma, USA

1 posted 2004-09-21 11:04 AM

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