Returning From the Deep, Dark Pit of Void

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Romy
Senior Member

since 2000-05-28

Posts 1170
Plantation, Florida

0 posted 2000-12-09 12:08 PM

Hi everyone! I posted this in CA a while back for my mom. ( She wrote it) Then she re-wrote it. She has Multiple Sclerosis and this is how she lets me know how she is dealing with the ups and downs of a strange disease. For anybody that doesn't know, it's a disease that affects the nervous system and one day she can be normal, the next unable to walk or see very well. I want to encourage her to write more and thought I'd post her poem or (prose) here.

RETURNING FROM THE DEEP, DARK PIT OF VOID
By Marlene

Light, awareness, peace and tranquillity.... return
A calmness envelopes my body.

For how long this time?…
One hour, Six, or in the next few minutes
until my head once again becomes cloudy
and my body is overcome with fatigue.

These bright moments however long, will be enjoyed & utilized to the maximum...
by thinking, analyzing, exerting
the precious energy to accomplish my hearts desire to do, dream and plan.

Alert and aware once again!!
In hopes of knowing when the body and mind is beginning to reach it's limits.

Praying not to forget the limits!! Praying not to forget to pray.

To resist the urge to attempt to prove to myself, that nothing in life has changed for me.
To resist an overwhelming power
that engulfs my very being,
all my senses,
threatening the joyful feeling and inner happiness
that I feel when I accomplish even a minuet task.

No matter!!

From the physical exertion, my brow and hair are damp with sweat—

I stagger...

my brow is creased with a frown.
As I speak, my words slur,
and become unintelligent.
Surprise, and a fit of giggles overcome me,
as I realize I should be embarrassed.
But sadness registers, as I realize also that

'they don't understand'.

Deep within me is such a wonderful happy feeling
of being constructive,accomplishing something,
that it doesn't matter.

I don't care.

I don't care, as I

fall...
fall...
fall...

into that deep dark pit.

It was worth it all.

Numb now to all emotions. There is no taking control as my body and mind
takes its sweet time rejuvenating.

Then
the
climbing

up and up, ever so slowly, from the dark pit,
void of everything .
And out into the world around me
to witness whatever I can,
prove to myself once again,
that I am

alive.

Dark Angel
Member Patricius

since 1999-08-04

Posts 10095

1 posted 2000-12-09 02:05 AM

This is deep and alive!
I really enjoyed it Marlene.
I look forward to reading more

Maree

"If my words could blanket the skies
and fill every corner and crevice of
this earth, still this wouldn't be enough"
"Maree Russo"

kcsgrandma
Senior Member

since 2000-09-24

Posts 1522
Presque Isle, ME

2 posted 2000-12-09 12:29 PM

Thank you both for sharing this terrific insight into what it is like to live with MS. It is beautifully written.

To love another person is to see the face of God.
- Les Miserables

Marilyn

pegasus111
Member Elite

since 2000-07-27

Posts 2219
ocala, fl, usa

3 posted 2000-12-09 03:49 PM

oh my!! what a huge slice of real life, real emotions..this is sooo very powerful..you will be in my prayers, Marlene.

the woods are lovely, dark, and deep, but I have promises to keep, and many miles to go before I sleep...Frost

Romy
Senior Member

since 2000-05-28

Posts 1170
Plantation, Florida

4 posted 2000-12-09 04:41 PM

Thanks to all of you, I'll send her your replies!

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