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amazon_lover Member
since 2000-04-09
Posts 491Dublin,Ireland |
In the first place I love you so much.I still feel there is something in me for you.That is pure and I can see only love though my faith in our love is decreasing after your revelation.I'll just carry on with the sweet memmories.I love you still but I'll think of you as a friend and a sweet person in my life and I'll be your guardian angel forever. What I don't understand is, did I get everything wrong or do you still love and care for it, do we still have a chance. Should I still hold on to it.But its tearing me bit by bit, should I be wise enough to let this pain go now, before it kills my spirits totally. Why di you put me in this position ? After all I just wanted to love you all my life. When did it occur to you that you've to seek someone else ? Do you think I'm so naive to continue for ever ? Did you consider me as a faithless lover ? Do I lack commitment if thats what you fear ? Do I fail to see something in you that you want me to see ? I was very sure about something before your revelation. I was filled with hopes and dreams. Until your voice cut my neck as a damocles sword. Was our love's death imminent ? I pray to god that I know all the reasons. I wish every star to bring the lady in you who loved me. But all my pleas are unanswered.I told you everytime I needed time to collect myself together to lead a happy life . Nothing was in my mind except the thought of you and me together.When did it occur to you we're not meant to be ? Why do I fall in love again and again but all in vain ? Are you just flirting all the time to break my heart. You're really a sweet person but at times why do you act so strangely . I gave myself to you totally I told everything about me. Then what the hell do you want to know from me. Do you doubt my love for you ? Do you suspect my commitment for a long term relationship? Do you just want to be your friend? Do you hate me for something I've done? What is it that you want me to be ? I love you and you're the only person I've chosen. What happened to everything we agreed eventhough in a sort of ambiguity. I guess I've been going towards something while you were silently drifting in another direction. What wrong did you see in me ? I like you so much and it's causing too much pain to know that you're drifting away from me. Why did this happen ? I just told you so many things about how I want our future to be ? To love you always and spend every minute with you. I wish I could know what you found in that person that made you decide it was time to get away from me. After all you'd have thought there are so many fishes in the sea. Why the hell di this thought cross your mind. Just because you couldn't feel my touch anymore and you needed someone. I'm sorry I take back. I can't avoid asking these questions as I've been so true to the only one I love. What you want more from me ? I've given myself to you totally and thats what is killing me and saddening me. It makes me feel after all why I had to meet some one so lovely. You took my heart and now you've shattered it mercilessly. I remember every moment and place when with you. You were just so lovely and I guess you too felt the same. Now I'm feeling that everything was only felt by me. I would like to clear what went wrong but how can I ask you again ? How can I ask you to be my partner in life ? Not because you're with someone else . Becasue I don't know where we stand . You've confused evreything totally. I thought we had a plan that would conquer every doubts and I thought till then we'll be friends. But what happened. It creates a pain in my chest and my heart pumps faster. What the hell went wrong ? Why di you left me unanswered ? I love you so much and if you still fail to see it I just close my eyes and wish you the best in you life. I can't continue like this forever. It'll ruin me totally. Now I'd like to continue as a person I was before you came in my life. I wish I could hold hands of someone as you're doing now. But I can't for I can't share everything I shared with you with aomeone else. I hope that you see me someday and give our love one chance. I hope that day will come. I love you so much and I feel just emptyness now engulfing me. I pray that you see me as a person whom you want me to be or just say the reasons why it wasn't meant to be. I just want to try again and sort things out. But I don't know where to start as I'm just lost in confusion of things that went wrong. I want to know what went wrong ? But as you'd have figured out I'm just going crazy and I love you so much that I'd like this relationship to continue. If not I assure you it'll be something which can grow and does not die with betterness. But for now I'm in need of reasons why this went wrong and I plead for it. Sincerely A_L |
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Denise
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-08-22
Posts 22648 |
Amazon Lover, as this is more a prose piece than a poem, I am moving this to the Prose Forum. Denise |
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