You certainly have not lost IT!
I never had a muse,
I never saw or heard one,
but this I know instinctively,
in this case you have won!!
I loved this story...I read it twice and as I read I thought I had seen the movie because I remember seeing that girl in the snow and being found... You have not lost a thing as far as writing goes; you just need to keep at it. Sincerely, martyjo