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Allstaria22
Member

since 2000-06-11

Posts 83
MN USA

0 posted 2001-04-24 09:21 PM

sometimes i can hardly get out of bed
it hurts too much
to know that i am dying
that i dont deserve it
that i am too young
will i get to see all the things
that i have never seen
will i get to climb a mountian
or write a book
have a child
or love a man
probably not
never
tears fall sometimes
when i think of all i will never have
but for everyday i wake up hurting
You renew me
You remind me
of all i already have
of everything i have already seen
of all i have already done
my poems are my children
and You are all the love that i need
it is still unfair
but was it fair for You to die
so brutally
so alone
did You deserve that
never
and knowing what You did for me
will give me the strength to die

Isaiah 1:18

"Everybody loves a rose, will you be thankful for the thorns?" -All Together Seperate

Joyce Johnson

Member Rara Avis

since 2001-03-10

Posts 9912
Washington State

1 posted 2001-04-25 01:12 AM

Oh my Dear. I never know when a poet is serious and when he is just inspired. I do hope everything is all right with you. Love, Joyce

BloomingRose
Member Elite

since 2000-08-09

Posts 3092
Florida

2 posted 2001-04-25 10:01 AM

My thoughts are the same as Joyce. This appears to be for real, and not just inspiration so I want to add a few thoughts for you.
First, you are very special to God. That you would write such a heartfelt poem, touches me as I am sure it does God. We have no answers as to why things happen the way they do, but we know without a doubt what the future holds in Christ...a promise of real joy and happiness is our heavenly home. The things he has in store are marvelous and more than we can understand. Still... you are here for a reason. God has a purpose for you, so keep writing and sharing with us.
**HUGS**
Deb

Trillium

Member Patricius

since 2001-03-09

Posts 12098
Idaho, USA

3 posted 2001-04-25 01:50 PM

Such a heart-rending poem. You must have great inner strength to write as you do and I hope that strength, which is God-given, will always be with you. Thanks for allowing us inside your pain.

Betty Lou Hebert

Songbird
Member Elite

since 1999-12-15

Posts 2184
Missouri

4 posted 2001-08-28 12:09 PM

All of your poetry is heart touching..and I assume that your writing of approaching death is a reality in your life. I don't know what it would be like to be in that situation although I might tend to think it might be a blessing to have the time to prepare for it's approach. My son left this world suddenly..and it was so hard for his family..but I thank God he was living a Christian life and loved the Lord. Feel free to email me. God bless you and give you peace.

dgvarner
Member Elite

since 2000-05-13

Posts 3552
High Springs, Florida

5 posted 2001-08-28 12:57 PM

this is awesome thoughts my friend..dieing at an early age..seems very unfair..but you put that very much into perspective in this poem..how fair is life at all..was it fair that He had to die as He did..? no..

you have a good attitude on death..i hope more will read this, as it has inspired me to find myself "living" more, day to day, while i have been given the chance to live..

hugs, g

~dgvarner/fallen rain~

"i believe we are here for a reason.
as each day unfolds,
we see less of the shadow
and more of the sun" -unknown

Rosebud1229
Senior Member

since 2000-04-05

Posts 1813
North Carolina

6 posted 2001-08-30 10:19 PM

Allstaria, God loves you, though I do not know what your going through I will pray for you to have peace in this time.

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