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Snb4everm Junior Member
since 2000-05-15
Posts 38 |
I know this is a very long poem. But is there a short way to say goodbye? I know this probably seems like pretty private stuff, but Oh, Well, I felt like sharing. Like they say.... it always helps to talk it out. Goodbye Mom I have to let you know, But where do I begin? To tell the story of you, Mother, child, and friend How can I tell you What you mean to me? It’s been 13 long years Since you hugged me tenderly. I never got to tell you All the ways you touched my life. I never got to tell you When you were still alive. I took things for granted Like most people do. Who knew that the moments we shared Would be so few? I went to sleep that night Safe, secure and sound. Who knew that while I slept My life was turned upside down? I lay in bed asleep, Dreaming happy dreams that night, While you were moments away from me, Fighting a losing battle for your life. When I woke the next morning And opened up my door, You were rolling by on a stretcher , Never to be seen any more How could I lay sleeping While your life just slipped away? How could I not know, While I dreamed the night away? I spent that whole entire day Waiting for a call, To let me know if you would live And make it through it all. Then the front door opened And I knew my life had changed. You were gone from my life And I was left with pain. How could I go on Without you by my side? To teach me how to live my life, To be my loving guide. I saw you again one more time, In a coffin you did lay. With pink satin lining framing your face, Dressed in your favorite suit of gray. Could this be my mother? Was this really you? Where was the life that had filled your eyes, And the smile that I knew? They called for one last goodbye Before the coffin closed that day, I could not go on without you, So on the floor I lay. Waiting at the foot of your coffin, Waiting to wake up from this dream, Waiting for you to hold me again, Waiting to see your eyes so green. I said my goodbyes to you that day, While secretly waiting for you to awake, But you never opened your eyes again, No matter how I prayed. I went home that day, Angry at a God, Who obviously didn’t love me If he could tear my life apart. I cried myself to sleep so long, I finally had to pray. I couldn’t stay apart from God, Not for another day. I asked the Lord to show me, Where you had really gone. And he lovingly answered my prayers, With a little note of song. I dreamed about your coffin, In a room filled with white. Just you and me alone, In the white and shining light. I held a tiny hammer, In my hand it stayed, God, said to tap your coffin, And see what note it played. I did as God had told me, I tapped it very light, And what do you think I heard, Dear Mother? Music gay and light. It sounded just like angel harps , A beautiful glorious note, I knew right then just where you were. You were finally home, I thanked the Lord that day, For answering my prayers. Even though I turned away from him I found him waiting there. With open arms to hold me, To help me to be strong, A father to take the place Of the mother that was gone. Thank you Lord. [This message has been edited by Snb4everm (edited 05-19-2000).] |
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since 2000-02-04
Posts 2919New York, USA |
Oh Snb - What a sad yet beautiful piece of work. How lovingly your words describe your dear Mom and the loss you felt. I've been there, and it is such a comfort to know where she is now. And to know He is there to give us the strength we need. Such a wonderful tribute. Bonnie |
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Songbird Member Elite
since 1999-12-15
Posts 2184Missouri |
A beautiful picture of hope and a happy reunion someday. |
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Alle'cram Senior Member
since 2000-02-28
Posts 1816Texas |
Angelia, Your loss was great, your love deep. Your poem told a story that made tears come to my eyes. May God especially bless you and continue to bring you comfort with the pain. Blessings, marcy |
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Snb4everm Junior Member
since 2000-05-15
Posts 38 |
Thanks so much. I was not sure about this poem, whether I should post it or just save it for myself. But since I've been here, just for the last few days, y'all have all made this a really great place to be. Thanks again, Angela  |
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WhtDove Member Rara Avis
since 1999-07-22
Posts 9245Illinois |
OMG this is sadly touching! It brought tears to my eyes. You've described well what you went through. It broke my heart, but I'm glad that you turned back to God. I'm also glad that you shared this with us. Be strong and of good courage, for I am the Lord your God. Sad subject, beautifully written. I'm left kind of speechless, this just ripped at my heartstrings. |
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DFen213 New Member
since 2000-05-16
Posts 7Thomasville,AL USA |
Oh my gosh! One of the saddest/happiest poems I've ever read. As most everyone else, it brought tears to my eyes. My mother almost died once, but God was there for her. I truly believe He saved her because she had some un-finished business. But don't be sad, rejoice, she is 50 million times happier where she is than here on Earth. Rejoice when someone dies to goto Heaven, to get out of this retched world. |
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ellie LeJeune Member Elite
since 2000-01-10
Posts 4156King of Prussia, PA USA |
Dear Angela; A beautiful, sad and touching poem of loss and faith and the gift she was in your life. I'm glad you've joined us here and looking forward to more of your poems. Ellie 02 |
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Geo Member
since 1999-12-29
Posts 73Nebraska |
Angela, Thank you so much for sharing this with us!! Having lost my mother I can identify with this. Looks like you have come full circle in dealing with your loss. God is our refuge and strength. Very touching!! Am so glad you didnt keep this one to yourself!! |
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