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mirjam Member
since 1999-11-24
Posts 246Auckland, New Zealand |
These walls I've built around my heart mark the boundaries of my prison. Fear helped me secure the barbed wire in place, grinned as I hung up the "Danger - keep out" sign. Tethered me to his side. Open your heart to me Says Love. We lie together on a mattress in the centre of this room, I plotting my escape, dreaming of freedom; Fear clothing me in stagnancy, feeding me self pity, pinning me down, raping my hope. Open your heart to me Says Love. The wallpaper is a live beat of brokenness; coloured with bruises, dried tears, festering wounds. These walls contain only so much air, and I have sucked up all the available oxygen. I am breathing pain. I am drowning. And I long to be a Jack in the box. |
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WhtDove Member Rara Avis
since 1999-07-22
Posts 9245Illinois |
Very stong emotions here! I'm sorry you're feeling this way? Anything I can do? Email me if you'd like to talk WhtDove377@aol.com I will be praying for you! <*\\\>< There's only two ways you can go... One way you can save your riches, And the other will save your soul. Rich Mullins |
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Songbird Member Elite
since 1999-12-15
Posts 2184Missouri |
I really like this poem, it is so desciptive of the way you were feeling, and the analogy you used brings the feelings alive. I too remember throwing up walls to escape hurt, not a good thing to do for too long. Ends up doing more harm than good. Take care, and hope you find the freedom to love. |
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ellie LeJeune Member Elite
since 2000-01-10
Posts 4156King of Prussia, PA USA |
Dear Mirjam; I hear your cry for help, please know that it's only a prayer away, and e-mail me, also [ellie2744@hotmail.com], if you need to talk. I know this pain, thank God, He took it from me,and it's only a distant memory. love you, ellie 02 |
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deleeme Senior Member
since 1999-10-09
Posts 1766NEW ENGLAND, USA |
Mirjam, Your imagery is exquisite,and your pain is vividly portrayed here. It kind of reminded me of the 3 Little pigs, but Love unlike the Wolf, is the hero/ And Love unlike the wolf doesn't just destroy and plunder, but welcomes(invites) and perhaps wonders. Your poem was very touching--if you are crying for help here--know that we are all here for you, David Write to me if you would like at: deleeme@hotmail.com "Our Creativity points to a Higher Creator--we couldn't have just happened, and for what ability we may possess--to God be the glory." -dlw- |
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Janet Marie Member Laureate
since 2000-01-22
Posts 18554 |
mirjam, this is a very excellent expression, with such superb imagery and description... very well written, sometimes we feel the walls that we put up..close in on us... you are in my thoughts and prayers... take care, janet marie |
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mirjam Member
since 1999-11-24
Posts 246Auckland, New Zealand |
Thank you all - you guys are great. I'm ok really, i'm just finding it hard to break down the barrier that i've thrown up even against God, i'm glad this poem portrayed that ok. Thanks for all your comments, and loving support. Deleeme, that was interesting, about the pigs and the wolf. I like the thought of Love being the wolf and knocking those walls down - you got me thinking! |
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sandgrain Member Elite
since 1999-09-21
Posts 3662Sycamore, IL, USA |
Fantastic writing! We definitely form our own prisons out of fear and it becomes harder and harder to open up to vulnerability again after deep hurts. |
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Severn Member Rara Avis
since 1999-07-17
Posts 7704 |
What can I say? You are one of the brightest people O know- and remember I told you have such a gift to bring God to people without you even realising? Hold on to that hon... Love you, see you soon K |
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