los banos, ca,
i hate myself becuase i cannot look past,
the guilty look on your face,
to convince myself that your not hurting me anymore,
and with me youve found your place.
i hate myself becuase i will not,
give all that i have, in fear,
that youll take it with you,
if things dont end up working here.
i hate myself becuase i should not,
take for granted all the hard times,
i know they will aid in the strength,
of your heart and mine.
i hate myself becuse im not able to,
see myself without you anymore,
when i promised i would never admit,
that your the only thing i live for.
i hate myself becuase i cant explian,
just where this feeling is coming from,
im a stubborn coward of a fool,
thats trying to hard to keep you in love.