los banos, ca,
please, be honest with me,
even if it hurts,
i want you to stop pretending,
that im beautiful.
look at me, and say,
all the horrible reflections you see,
of the person i know i am inside,
go ahead, its okay to critisize me.
i know, even if your silent,
that you would rather gaze upon,
a body far more beautiful than mine,
that would leave you breathless.
so please, turn away from me,
it will at least give me peace,
to know that im not living in the reflection,
of someone i can never be.
please, just tell me,
that im not the person you fell in love with anymore,
im not that pretty girl who cuaght your eye,
the one you grew to love.
these are all the things i long to tell you,
but instead i let you tell me that im beautiful,
that youll love me forever, just the way i am,
but i know inside, that one day i wont be good enough anymore,
and youll be to affraid to hurt me.
but im begging you , please just tell me.....
you want me to trust you with my heart, when i cant even trust myself not to let you break it.