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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland 
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I'm struggling on a daily basis, Battling my doubting emotional twin, To overcome my lack of self confidence, There IS more to life than just existing. I have some special friends, To boost my spirits when I am down, I have my loving family, They MUST think I'm a clown. I have my music and poetry, Within them I am at last set free, I feel I've come home again, This is what is meant for me. I'm trying hard, but still so fragile, My feelings are easily hurt, Embraced by self loathing, Kicking around in the dirt. I pray for an end to this downer, An end to all the doubt, To believe in myself totally again, Not feeling alone and left out. I miss that confidence, In days gone by nothing could stop me, I'd take on anyone or anything, Happy, smiling, and free. If I stood on a stage once more, As I dearly loved to do, Not a true note would leave my mouth, And there'd be nothing I could do! There is a confidence returning, Slow in it's recovery, Everyone else seems to like me well enough, Now if I could just love me. So, I'm fighting these doubts, Trying to be strong and true, Trying, then sliding, then trying again, It's all that's left for me to do. Goodbye to fragileness, Hello to new strength and vigour, But just remember this glimpse of me, I'm not all I appear. ------------------ Through poetry my heart and soul truly sing... ~Isis~ (Daughter of Mystery) |
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Systematic Decay Senior Member
since 1999-09-15
Posts 1301That place with padded walls and funny people in white......... |
Isis, I love this one, and I can relate all too much. ------------------ Thinking is just what a great many people think they are doing when they are merely rearranging their predjudices. |
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RobertB Senior Member
since 1999-09-26
Posts 1104Champaign, IL |
very nice Isis....I think many can relate to those words you posted for us. Me...I do Prozac now...and feel ALL better!!! ------------------ if you can dream; you can fly...if you are flying; you are dreaming. |
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Ohme Senior Member
since 1999-07-17
Posts 816Texas |
Isis, perhaps your self confidence behaves like mine. I know it's there some where. But sometimes I just can't fine it!  ------------------ Yesterday is history, tomorrow just a mystery. And if today is good to me how could I ask for more? |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
Thanks Systematic Decay maybe it is a process of ageing?? Thanks Robert, glad you feel better about yourself now!! That's it Ohme, I know it's there, sometimes it's hiding!! ------------------ Through poetry my heart and soul truly sing... ~Isis~ (Daughter of Mystery) |
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Marilyn Member Elite
since 1999-09-26
Posts 2621Ontario, Canada |
I have been there my sister. You are fighting for it to come back and I am proud of you. DO NOT!! Let anyone (I do mean anyone) try to keep you down girl! You are so very special and precious. I know how hard it is to believe in yourself when you are told how worthless you are. Do what you have to do to get through for now but as soon as you can stretch your wings. |
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Denise
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-08-22
Posts 22648 |
Don't ever give up the fight! And remember, you ARE special! ------------------ Denise |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
Thanks again Marilyn, soul sister indeed you are. Much in common building stronger bonds. Thanks my friend HUGSThanks too Denise, for your support and understanding. And for saying I am HUGS------------------ Through poetry my heart and soul truly sing... ~Isis~ (Daughter of Mystery) |
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hoot_owl_rn Member Patricius
since 1999-07-05
Posts 10750Glen Hope, PA USA |
Isis....I see a butterfly emerging from a cocoon and spreading it's wings at last when I look at you. Wings not yet tested, but soon you shall soar my dear friend. You posess an internal strength that will see you through and allow you to overcome. I believe in you. Hugs Ruth |
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Sally S. Senior Member
since 1999-06-07
Posts 847Ohio |
Well, I believe the phrase "Only the strong survive." is accurate in so many cases. Yours included, my dear. Once you gain the strength, you can do just about anything. I think we've all faught with these feelings at one time or another. Well done, Isis. |
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JennyLee Senior Member
since 1999-09-01
Posts 1461Northwestern, NJ. |
I agree with all who have posted to this before me. I strongly agree with Hoot!! Fly little butterfly  Jenny ------------------ Love is an attempt at penetrating another being,But it can only succeed if the surrender is mutual. [This message has been edited by JennyLee (edited 11-21-1999).] |
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Marge Tindal 
since 1999-11-06
Posts 42384Florida's Foreverly Shores |
Isis - Keep up the quest for self-confidence. It may ebb and flow, and in so doing take you to the shore of realization, where you will stand confidently. I have confidence in you that you may use until you find your own. Your poetry is testament that you possess such warmth and strength to be shared with others. Thank you for sharing. ------------------ ~*The pen of the poet never runs out of ink, as long as we breathe.*~ noles1@totcon.com |
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Pepper Member Elite
since 1999-08-19
Posts 3079Southern Florida |
I too agree with the others....Isis, you are so special....beautiful heart and soul....and, my dear, you are a survivor first class!! ------------------ A soul that writes from the heart and shares it, truly gives a gift extraordinaire! |
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Isis Member Ascendant
since 1999-09-06
Posts 6296Sunny Queensland |
My... thankyou all for your lovely responses.. Ruth thanks so much, I think we will have to be a shoulder for each other Thanks Sally S and Jenny Thanks Marge Thanks Pepper so much, you are always there for me With all of you baracking for me, there is no failure ------------------ The more you praise and celebrate your life, the more there is to celebrate. ~Isis~ (Daughter of Mystery) |
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