Floating gently on a cloud....
The thought of parting with you is ice in my veins,
Freezing my heart and soul, filling me with sorrow.
Every time I see you I wonder:
Why there has to come a time when
Our paths of life will separate,
Taking us further and further apart.
There is no time or place for you and me,
So I face an eternity without your smile....
Without your love....without you.
Life will go on, it always does,
Waiting not for me to grieve the rift between us.
You will become but a distant memory to me,
The brightness you brought into my life will slowly dim.
But what of the gap between now and then?
I will shed floods of tears when we part for good.
Your face will be etched on my heart as
I silently relive every moment weíve shared.
My whole being will ache like it aches now
As the reality of losing you chills my being.
It is like awakening from a beautiful dream.
At first, every detail is vivid in your heart and mind
And you canít help but ponder upon its wonder.
Then it slowly fades as your thoughts are called elsewhere.
You cannot completely forget it, however,
It remains within you forever.
Just as you will be in my heart for as long as I live.
I canít imagine life without you.
Itís like a midnight sky with no stars....
An ocean drained of its water.
My heart and soul are in denial,
I cannot believe this dream is coming to an end.
One day soon, I will wake up and you wonít be there.
The sunís dazzling rays will become dull.
The sweet smell of fresh air will become bitter and choke me.
The birdsí song will sound like clanging bells.
For it is you who brightens the world for me,
Your voice is the only music for my ears.
You multiply the joy in my life and divide the sorrow.
How will I endure living without you by my side?
A future without you is intimidating...
Iím afraid of climbing the mountain of life alone.
Who will give me reason to smile again?
Whose wise words will elucidate the mysteries of existence?
No one to comfort me when I am sorrowful.
No one to reassure me as I face my fears.
No one to believe in me when I falter on the way.
On the way to where?
What good is to be found unless you are there,
My bright, shining star...my heaven on earth...
My reason for living.
Something inside me will die when you leave.
I will cling to the memories of time spent with you,
Yet even they will fade as time goes by.
I will dream of the past less and less,
Untill one day it will cease to torment my heart.
But even then I will look back and remember the happy days
When all that mattered was You and Me.
You and me......
Maybe the bliss I found in being with you
Is meant only for heaven.
If that be so, I pray that in death we are reunited,
For then, an eternity of love and happiness will be ours.
With that prayer in my heart, I will live in hope.
In hope of finding my way without you,
Untill the day comes when we are together forever,
In a place with no anger or tears.
I have to let you go, cease being dependent upon you.
You have your dreams and I have mine.
Sadly, these dreams do not entwine.
I must not visualise the past when you leave;
It is essential I realise that some things do not last.
You have blessed me abundantly,
Every smile, every word is a miracle to me.
I am lucky to have known you for the short time weíve had.
I love everything about you....
The way your embraces made me feel so safe.
The way your smile made my life beautiful.
The way you understood me.
The way you cared.
Soon I will be alone and unhappy,
For you wonít be there to give me life.
The world will be so cold and so cruel without you.
There is nothing I can do.
You have to go, I must set you free.
I finally realise that never can there be
An earth spinning round in space
With a place for You and Me.
Yet as I consider even for a moment
A life in which you take no part,
I see a vacuum. Nothing.
Things will happen outside me
But there will be no life within.
My emotions will withdraw in order to cope with such a loss.
My mind knows I must let go but my heart wonít listen.
If I could bring time to a halt Iíd do it now,
For it is passing too quickly for me.
I fight it, but being such that it is I lose;
Brings me closer to the day when I must rip in two
The bond or connection I have with you.
Your farewell will extinguish the spark of life within me.
I will be as a rainbow with no colour,
For you are the only colour in my life.
Or as a unicorn with no magic
For your touch is the only magic to me.
I have loved you since the day we met
And Iíll never be able to stop.
You gave me life, hope and love...
Your beauty makes me feel beautiful.
I wish I could turn off my feelings,
Thus preventing the pain I will feel so soon.
However, I find that impossible...
Itís like asking the sun to stop shining
Or a river to stop flowing.
Yet, it is this love that will get me through the agony ahead.
For I now know:
ď Tis better to have loved and lost then never love at all ď
You have shed light on that for me.
So now I will let you go,
Fully aware of the love and happiness I am losing.
You have taught me how to live
And now tis time for me to live without you by my side.