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shell-grunge
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since 1999-12-23
Posts 17


0 posted 1999-12-29 01:30 AM


its fairly choppy but written with a spontanious pen:

if i wasn't a spectical
maybe id be grim.
tried before
controless and lank...
drives me to the brink
of unknown wander
freedom uncontrolled
I must starve my frolics
when did the ciggarettes get bigger then me?
if I divert from pointed ranges
in intoxification.
is it safe to stumble missionless?
does every volume be equal?
are the bondaries just a facade?
who says? who says?
must I be solemn to be thin?
and rigid to the quota to achieve flat?
has the retribution
come to haunt me
since I swam with all the others
in stilled waters
where they where calm
so was I?
so was I just a picture?
the thorns just at bay.
don't take my guitar bitch.
bitch beast **** away.
**** away bitch beast
I can swim
and be rigid
without your claws in my side
with no spinning cycles o angst.
can be flat.
**** away bitch beast.


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Marilyn
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since 1999-09-26
Posts 2621
Ontario, Canada
1 posted 1999-12-29 01:08 PM


You write of demons. Things which taunt and ride you. We all deal with demons in our own way. The particulars of your demon I do not know but I wish you luck in banishing them. (or at least caging them).


shell-grunge
Junior Member
since 1999-12-23
Posts 17

2 posted 1999-12-29 08:06 PM


THE EXPLAINATION FOR THIS WRITING:

ok, i was diagnosed with anorexia nervosa when i was 13, two years ago. it took about a year to get 'better'. i changed schools made new friends, and was really enjoying life. i was high on life. i was living. fairly normally. but then before i was aware, it came back, ripped the carpet up from beneath my feet and left me a shattered
heap of a girl again. it feels like a punishment or something.....does tis make any scence?
hmmm


keep up witht he writing.
shells

Alwye
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Member Elite
since 1999-06-16
Posts 3850
In the space between moments
3 posted 1999-12-30 12:48 PM


It does seem to make sense to me, yes.  You have my best wishes and prayers for your recovery, shell-grunge.  Keep up the writing, its a phenomenal way to deal with pain.

 *Krista Knutson*

~*Like a lion, without fear of the howling pack,
Like a gust of wind, ne'er trapped in a snare,
Like a lotus blossom, ne'er sprinkled by water,
Let me, like a unicorn, in solitude roam.*~ Hymn Of Buddha



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