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Stephani
Junior Member

since 1999-11-26

Posts 32
massachusetts~usa

0 posted 1999-11-28 01:28 AM

I trust You (I think)
I'm near you
I listen to hear you

I want you
I lead you
I might even need you

You wonder
You tell me
If you and me could be

You lure me
You cure me
But You're not careful to stir me

I wish you'd ALWAYS treat me
So sweetly
So respectfully, thoughtfully, and kind
Although when you do, you still don't understand
Why you distarct my mind

It makes me think I'm not good enough (even though YOU betrayed ME)
Life's just too d*mn hard
In my heart we are not
What we both want so far

Why am I so confused~it'll be a year for him and I December 11th~though i'm so distressed over what he did...I found out this september...it happened in july...AND my "supposed" best-friend knew he cheated on me and never told me......I feel so alone

I love him so much it's TOO hard to let go

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***Stephani***

foxy_16
Junior Member

since 1999-11-21

Posts 31
Lake Lillian, MN, USA

1 posted 1999-11-28 09:09 PM

I know how you're feeling- the same happened to me a while ago. YOu'll get thru it. Be strong and follow your heart! Good Luck! Keep writing such great poems- i really like this one!

~Kayla~

Amanda
New Member

since 1999-11-29

Posts 1
Pittsfield, Ma. USA

2 posted 1999-11-29 05:54 PM

Why do you keep blaming this on me Steph? I knew for 2 weeks~ I told you when I could. Why are you still with Joe & hate me? He did this. I still care about you more than anything and you hate me because of something that someone,who doesn't deserve you,did. I wanted to tell you right away & that was why I asked Joe at Corey's house. He lied to me and said it didn't happen. A week later Corey told me IT DID. Who was I supposed to believe? I told you when I was sure it was true. I'm sorry for everything that has happened and contrary to what you may think~~I never wanted to hurt you. I love you Steph and I always will, even if you hate me forever. Someday you'll realize what I had to go through not being able to tell you & feeling like I was betraying you. I'll always be here even if you don't think you can trust me~you can...

~Amanda~

Marilyn
Member Elite

since 1999-09-26

Posts 2621
Ontario, Canada

3 posted 1999-11-29 07:29 PM

Oh dear. I have one comment to make. Men will come and go but a friendship can last forever. Amanda (from her note to you) did what a friend should do. She checked it out before coming to you with the story. You should never hurt a friend with gossip and lies. Why are you still with a guy who openly treats you like a fool? He is not worth the pain. You will never be able to trust him again because he has proved himself untrustworthy.

Please think about this with your head and not your emotions.

Cuddlez
Member

since 1999-11-27

Posts 422
Walla Walla, WA 99362

4 posted 1999-12-02 01:23 AM

Trust your friend. I would. It takes a lot of guts for her to post something like that on the net where the whole world can see. Maybe you need a break from each other, but I think you'll miss her in a couple of weeks. Are you sure you arent imposing some of the anger from the bf onto your friend? If he cheats on you know, he will a hell of a lot later......

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Time flies? Say it not so, time stays we go.

Erin123
Junior Member

since 1999-11-23

Posts 13
Chicago, IL

5 posted 1999-12-02 03:36 PM

i think you need to really look at who you should be mad at. what if Amanda had told you that she thought Joe was cheating, but it turned out she was wrong? you would have probably been mad at her for that. open your eyes and see what a good friend you have. if you let your friendship go, you will only find yourself feeling worse than you already do. no best friend you can turn to, and a guy who doesn't even respect you enough to be loyal to you. without your friend, you will be alone. without that guy, you will finally be free. think about it.

Stephani
Junior Member

since 1999-11-26

Posts 32
massachusetts~usa

6 posted 1999-12-03 09:31 AM

i have or i should say had 2 best-friends. i have that one that has never gossiped about me and has always stood by me and respected for my choices and then i HAD another one who has also talked about me behind my back and kept stuff from me and never was REALLY honest. I'm willing to lose her~she's useless to me~she's had too many 2nd chances, i'm allowing to give my boyfriend one, but next time i will get rid of him. i'm just confused beucase he doesn't undertsand my point of view, and neither doe amanda

Beri
Member

since 1999-11-25

Posts 149

7 posted 1999-12-03 11:26 PM

Hey Steph, I dont wanna sound like everyone else here, but I have to give you my own experience here -- I've screwed up repeatedly with my best friend and she has given me numerous second chances, and right now she is not speaking to me, but she said that she needs time to heal for my latest hurt to her, but she loves me none the less, and knows I have problems to deal with and will always stay by my side. Now I am sure Amanda does not have the problems I have and the reasons I have hurt my best friend, but she really cares about you, this I can so tell, from being there myself. Trust me, if she didn't care, she wouldn't even be worrying about this, she'd say oh screw it! But she's not, she really cares, and from what she has said she was just checking to see if it was true...would you rather her tell you something like that and then find out it was all a lie. Then you might think she was trying to just break you guys up, and you'd think she had other motives. You have to think to yourself what would you have done had it been the other way around... Dont lose a great friendship for this. You'll always need your friends, especially ones like Amanda. As for your relationship with the guy, I've always heard and always thought this to be true: "If he cheats once, forgive him, it was a mistake; but if he cheats again, then you know he has a problem..." I say if you think you can do it, give him another chance, only if you think you can truly trust him though and not be paranoid or anything like that. Now, I hope you aren't mad by anything I've said. I've just wanted to help you. I am a 20 year old girl who has been through so much and my college major is psychology, so I thought I might give you my thoughts and see if they help you...
Just stay strong girl! And good luck!!!

Stephani
Junior Member

since 1999-11-26

Posts 32
massachusetts~usa

8 posted 1999-12-04 02:35 PM

just to let everyone know~amanda doesn't want me to write anymore about her so i won't~she wrote to me and said she hates me now and hopes i kill myself, so she's no friend of mine. and tolet everyone know, amanda is NOT the one who fooled around with joe.

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(:***Stephani***:)
"A true friend will always stay a friend
No matter if you feel as though the friendship or relationship is about to end."

Kevin

Senior Member

since 1999-11-02

Posts 729
Torrington, Ct, Usa

9 posted 1999-12-04 02:42 PM

sorry things didnt work out steph,
but i hope you stay around for a very long time
no curtain to close on you my friend
stay in your spotlight

Oo0ostephanio0oO
Member

since 2000-01-19

Posts 194
Massachusetts ~USA~

10 posted 2000-01-20 01:03 AM

Well just to let you all know who know me from before~i own't mention HER name, but we are through being friends. She still gossips, and dwells on it in her profiles 7 everything. She was NEVER really there for me. She was only fake. She admitted to being fake, saying she's hated me for 5 years, and I was always bugging her. And I was too annoying to be around. SHe never opened up to me like i did to her. And now JOE~who I am still with~STILL to his day has not opened up to me like he should be since we've been together over 1 year. If this keeps up,a dn he doesn't understand me needs. We might be through too. But for now, since I am in love with him, I am following my heart, and when i am fed up enough, i will then let go. And like someone told me before: "let it go and if it comes back to you it was meant to be but if it doens't you will neevr be" <somehting along those lines>

thanks everyone who is still around and those who may post more

(:***Stephani***:)
"A true friend will always stay a friend
whether or not you feel as though the friendship or relationship is about to end."

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