los banos, ca,
im writing to say im sorry......
about how i let my emotions,
break down my thinking,
the way i let my tears fall,
when i cant stop remembering.
im writing to say im........
not as perfect as id like to be,
but try to give you enough,
to keep your interest in me,
and keep your heart in love.
im writing to say......
that i havent lost the feeling,
of wanting to always have you near,
but you dont hold me like you used to,
and nothing can soothe my fears.
im writing to ..........
clear my mind of all the things,
i want to tell you to your face,
but cant find the words to speak,
hiding my questions without a trace.
as an apology to you, my love,
for all the insecurities i have inside,
about wiether or not im good enough,
and you know that loving me is right.
lost somewhere i guess,
wondering where you stand,
and why im so confused,
and have left my heart unplanned.
im writing to say im sorry,
and i love you with all my heart,
despite where the fires gone,
i know well find a brand new start.