los banos, ca,
sometimes i think were better of in yesterday,
when kisses were heartfelt,
and promises were treasured deeply.
it hurts that weve moved on to where we stand now,
where kisses are expected, and no longer cherished,
and so many promises have been broken.
yours "ill never hurt you,"
and mine "i forgive you,"
because youve hurt me so many times,
and ive never quite forgiven you.
you no longer need the soft whispered i love yous to remind you that i do,
but without them i so often fall into a confusion of where your emotions stand.
i havent outgrown wanting to be near you always,
and i doubt you even miss me anymore,
but then, you missed everything about me,
and i wonder if your falling out of love,
only your the last to know.
you hold me when you need to,
but never that tight anymore.
where i could feel every heartbeat,
blending with my own,
and your kisses gave me chills,
that helped me through the night alone.
i know that you still love me,
but where exactley has yesterday gone,
with all the innocence,
and all the carefulness,
to never hurt each other.
was i wrong to give you everything,
because your tiring of my love now,
i wonder as you sleep beside me,
are you somewhat bored with everything weve done.
and how long will it be, until you want something new?
i watch you sleep,
and feel the tears fall,
i let them spill onto your chest,
and long for how it used to be.
when you could hold me all night,
without saying a word,
and i could feel how much you loved me,
in every breathe you took.
but i guess weve outgrown that,
and ill never agian,
know what its like,
that first instant,
that you fall in love,
and are blinded by the tings,
youll never understand,
and only know,
that its something so real,
youll never let it go.
because through everyhing,
still i know,
that ill always be in love with you,
even if were dont end up,
having the forever weve dreamed of.