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tori
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since 1999-06-18
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Mechanicsville, Maryland, USA

0 posted 1999-11-01 01:44 AM


Deep with in this brain
Lurks a woman quite insane
She rips and tares and eats my soul
Slipping out she takes control
Ruthless and reckless she is not shy
Over takes my thoughts and fly's
Darker planes I've never known
I sometimes feel no one's home

People stare or so it seems
And I wonder if I'm imagining
She has my mind all turned around
Pulling me into the ground
How I wish she was not there
She makes me feel that I don't care

That bit of dust that's on the shelf
A mountain to her, but to no one else
She yells and screams and stomps about
I wish that I could kick her out

She sits and cry's for days on end
When I am happy she turns up again
Pulling me down in to a pit
So dark and deep I see no end to it
And nothing left of myself I see
She takes the very best from me

Its as I've been on a binge
But never a drop has entered in
I walk around all hung over
Yet all this time I'm cold sober

She has all the fun, so it seems
leaving me for the rude awaking
Till all feelings are gone from me
Including her insanity

She does not stop to take a breath
My mind, her mind, is on death
Through her eyes there is no light
Until that time she goes away
I pray to make through today

Pain is what she is,
she is what she gives
In my brain she lives
I am not myself today

tori ©1999

Depression by what ever name its called
is something that effects all of us..
Lets try to listen to a friend when they call

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If with pen in hand I've made you think
I've not wasted one drop of ink
Vlh.

[This message has been edited by tori (edited 11-01-1999).]

© Copyright 1999 Victoria Hosier/tori - All Rights Reserved
wayoutwalt
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since 1999-06-22
Posts 4870
TEXAS (it's all big)
1 posted 1999-11-01 01:55 AM


sweetly done tori you are on an impressive poetic roll keep it up!

hoot_owl_rn
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since 1999-07-05
Posts 10750
Glen Hope, PA USA
2 posted 1999-11-01 09:06 AM


Nicely written Tori, we all have days we are not ourselves
WhtDove
Member Rara Avis
since 1999-07-22
Posts 9245
Illinois
3 posted 1999-11-01 10:49 AM


Tori I'm sorry! What can I do for you? My friend this is so sad. Let me know won't u?
tori
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since 1999-06-18
Posts 520
Mechanicsville, Maryland, USA
4 posted 1999-11-01 11:41 AM


Awe Dove I wrote this after we talked last night now you know we were laughing most of the night... don't worry my friend I'm ok fine sometimes they are just words with relected feelings of the past... not truth of today... but I thank you my good friend..
Verma
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since 1999-10-25
Posts 80
Midlands, England
5 posted 1999-11-01 12:09 PM


Well thought out poem Tori, straight from the heart. Thanks for sharing.
suthern
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Member Seraphic
since 1999-07-29
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Louisiana
6 posted 1999-11-01 12:42 PM


Very good, Tori!
Pepper
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since 1999-08-19
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Southern Florida
7 posted 1999-11-01 01:02 PM


Very well written Tori.....my prayers are with you.....thank you for sharing...

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A soul that writes from the heart and shares it, truly gives a gift extrordinaire!

WhtDove
Member Rara Avis
since 1999-07-22
Posts 9245
Illinois
8 posted 1999-11-01 03:02 PM


Glad to hear that Tori! One never does know tho. You go to bed one way and wake up another. No pun intended for those of you out there that are thinking what I am. LOL
tori
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since 1999-06-18
Posts 520
Mechanicsville, Maryland, USA
9 posted 1999-11-01 04:41 PM


Thanks Verma pepper and suthern..:-)
How true whtdove how true.lol

Balladeer
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10 posted 1999-11-01 05:48 PM


I consider it a wonderful piece of writing with great insight.
tori
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since 1999-06-18
Posts 520
Mechanicsville, Maryland, USA
11 posted 1999-11-02 01:40 AM


Thank you so kindly Balladeer
Watcher666
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since 1999-10-13
Posts 1606

12 posted 1999-11-02 01:45 AM


We all have days like this...Some more than others! Well done!

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Illusion...what we see and what we do...it's all up to you.

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