Head down & in my hands, I bow this way in disgrace...
Tears well up & begin to stream - wet lines left on my face.
Fallen tears leave cold cheeks as the air cools their path -
I just need to slip into - a nice warm bubble bath.
Have you ever sat on a cold floor - banging your head against the wall ?
To the world you're strong & independent - at home you feel so small...
Tucked away behind 4 walls, so that no one see's your pain -
Everything you try to do - seems to happen all in vain.
You sit & bang your head, as you cry & cry & cry -
Why can't you just spread wings so you can fly & fly & fly ?
Fly off to find the peace - and the joy that you once had...
Fly off to spend some time alone, & maybe find your dad...
Sit down with him & ask him how come everything is wrong -
Take his hand & walk with him, together sing a song -
Like you used to do in church, when you were just a little girl...
Time has passed you by so fast - when did all of this unfurl ?
I'd give anything to spend the day, just me with "my old man"...(dad)
I'd thank him for the love he gave, I'd hold his calloused hand - -
I'd tell him I'm so proud of him - the way he's lived his life...
The way he always stood so tall, through bitterness and strife.
No matter how bad things did seem, he always had a smile...
And everytime I needed him, he'd go that extra mile.
He's the only one I know, who loves ME for who I am -
He cherishes me through & through - and always gives a damn.
He raised me to be strong, & to believe that I can fly -
So why is it that every night, I cry & cry & cry?
Dad, I know that you're not here, to fix everything that's wrong...
But please just say a prayer for me - so I can be real strong.
*** Written for my father, because he is the light that I follow when I get lost...he is my beacon in the storm. Thank you dad for loving who I am....I am proud to be your daughter, for I am who you are.
With all my love, Genny
I beckon you to come...I lure you with my tongue... - poet FemmeFatale
[This message has been edited by poetFemmeFatale (edited 10-08-1999).]