I just wanted you to know
I wanted to write some things down for you,
Before we decided our marriage was through.
So much pain and so much strife,
God baby, weíve had a hard life.
I pushed you away when I needed you the most,
The pain in my mind a horrible ghost.
I found in another, joys for my heart,
Yet thought of you often while we were apart.
Crimes of the heart, are worse than are said,
I promise you this, she never slept in our bed.
I ended it cause it was the right thing to do,
The price I paid, was my marriage was through.
I never have sought comfort in the arms of another,
My vows in tact, I have lusted for no other.
The sorrow I have brought you I cannot repair.
I know you were lonely and filled with despair.
I wish I could take it all back now,
To make you understand, and love me somehow.
The pain I have caused has diminished your light,
My spot in you heart, now turned to night.
No other woman can compare to who you are,
Youíve been the only woman Iíve loved in my life so far.
The two we created are almost all grown,
What a beautiful thing, the seeds we have sown.
Iíll always remember the fond memories,
Like making love in the tent, under the Redwood trees.
Weíve have some wonderful memories, you and I,
God, honey itís so hard for me to say good bye.
With mist in my eyes, I wanted you to know,
That the hardest thing for me is to let you go.
Lying awake, and alone by myself,
Crying so softly, at pictures of you on my shelf.
Only one thing, for you I feel I did right,
Was empower my woman with the ability to fight.
As a nurse under pressure to save oneís life,
For this, I was always proud to call you my wife.
Iíll never stop loving your eyes so blue,
For look into mine and youíll find thatís always been true.
I want all the fighting to come to an end,
I really need you to be my best friend.
When I saw you finding comfort in the eyes of another,
Seeking counseling for us, heck why bother.
The truth in your heart you were unable to admit,
Was you have had enough and it was time to quit.
I tell myself Iím happy that youíve started to date,
But this has only sealed our inevitable fate.
I guess that I should go out and try to do the same,
But please, when weíre together, donít utter his name.
I will respect the life with him you may make,
But letís keep our promise to our children, for heavens sake.
To give them the parents they need and deserve,
For itís their feelings we should really try to preserve.
I donít blame you for the decision youíve made,
For your soul I have pierced with the point of my blade.
I want to release you from any guilt and shame,
Hell, if I were you, I probably would have done the same.
I hope you understand this poem that I give,
So on with your life you are starting to live.
Just these words I still need to impart,
"I love you", and you will always have a place in my heart.