I cant believe you would say that.
You've hurt my feelings,to a great depth.
You've taken away the last bit of bond,
The bond I tried to maintain for so long.
You've always thought that you were a saint.
But you were devil itself when you're insane.
You thought you were "kind" to take me and my mother in.
But I'd rather my mother didnt remarry.
I rather be poor.I'd give up everything.
All I want is a tiny bit of happiness.
A home where I can call home.
I did try to respect you.
Trying to please you with whatever I do.
I was stupid to do that.
Why should I do everything your way?!
I am not some sort of puppet that you control.
I am a human.I have feelings too.
You used to tell me this,
"I beat you because I love you".
What kind of weird logic is that!!
The times when you threatened to whack me till I bled.
Or when you threatened to punch me and slap me.
Do you call that love?
I've put up with everything for years.
You always tell me how fortunate I am.
To have everything that I want,not like others.
Who the hell cares for those material things!
You couldnt give me what I want most.
The kind of love and warmth from parents.
How many time have you embarrassed me??
In front of your friends and my friends.
I would become the butt of your joke.
You find that funny?!
You've always thought yourself as a 90's father.
"Hey!You could always confide in me anytime."
Do I look like an idiot to you?
I've learnt my lessons.The consequences of confiding in you.
Whenever you get angry,you threatened me.
Threatened to tell everybody what I told you.
I've imagined myself killing you so many times.
The kind of thoughts I get just freaks me out.
I just wanna get out of this hell.
To live my life the way I want.
You can then live your pathetic little life with your other kid.
I'm waiting..waiting for the day,
The day to start life anew.
You caused me misery.
But honestly,I dont hate you.
Because hate is not my style.
I've never hated anyone for long.
Just a few minutes of rage,then it's gone.
I feel better now that I've gotten these feelings out.
But things will never be the same again.