Thank you all, I have been to hell and back tonight. (especially since I know he is with another woman right now) He left me because he made plans with her to go over her house this weekend, and i would've never known unless my friend told me he was going. He thought I wouldn't believe her, but I do. He's never told me the truth. And as to him leaving me for another man, it's not true, but he is gay, he's just "in the closet," but I feel leaving me for another woman is worse. I mean what does she have that I don't? What do alot women have but not me? Self-esteem? But if these girls are with him, it's cause they can't find a good man, and are settling for someone who will treat them like dirt. He had the chance at me, and he lost it. My wonderful self will go elsewhere. Well, maybe I'm not wonderful, but nobody's perfect.