Today I give you a true peek inside my soul... please be kind.
Today I hide inside my soul and close the doors behind.
Today's reserved for me alone, I hope that you don't mind.
This day is unlike all the rest, on a day like this she died.
Though this day 13 times has passed, still I have not cried.
Tears have run down from my eyes, but try to comprehend.
The tears I need are deep inside, tears like those don't end.
You see I need to purge my soul of grief I 've long held in.
The pain that needs to be set free so I can live again.
I know you may not understand what I am trying to say.
I know you think I should move on, but give to me this day.
So many times I felt the need to curl up in a ball.
To cry until I cry no more, or not get up at all.
I never got the chance you see to cry and let her go.
A little girl of 16 years was so quickly forced to grow.
Please just give me this one day to try and reach those tears.
And if again I don't succeed, I'll cry again... next year.